MIND REHAB

Musings of a sleep deprived soul...

2011-09-25T19:01:00.000+08:00

"My brother, I Morgan, is your loyal subject. I will support you on your quest to join the kingdom..."

As I watch the drama of Camelot unfold in my 24 inch TV (naks), I get to imagine things like: What is life outside of a call center? What else can I do before I reached an age too late to explore "what if"?

I know that it seemed like the line from the Camelot series has nothing to do with my questions. But I would say that there is. The words that Morgan said echoes through my head... well, not exactly in the same dramatic words but...you know, the same sense.
I feel trapped where I am right now. I feel obligated to stay because of loyalty. URK.

But maybe I am just sleep deprived... thus these useless musings.

The Road So Far...

2011-09-18T21:50:00.002+08:00

After 9 months since my last post, here I am again, checking on old posts, reading comments that I have failed to read when it was still fresh (thus I also failed to respond to catty remarks...urk!), reliving the fantasy of being the most famous blogger...blah blah blah.

It has been a busy busy busy life so far.
Don't get me wrong... it has been fruitful one. I am now earning 50k a month because I have been so busy getting my self up in the corporate ladder. But sometimes, I cannot help but think... is this everything? Am I going to spend the rest of my life enslaved to the demands of the call center that I am working for?

I looked out of the window and contemplated on these questions 5 minutes ago.
It hit me then...

No. I will not be satisfied by 13 hours a day sitting in an office surrounded by people who do not know what they are doing half of the time. I can do something else. I can...sell USANA Products.

YES! I can have more income by investing on health products!

Here are a couple of products that I am currently endorsing:

ESSENTIALS, POLY C, PROFLAVANOL, BIO OMEGA, COQUINONE, ACTIVE CALCUIM PLUS ... all manufactured to cater to promote better health for adults.

SENSE beauty products. It includes facial cream, toner, whitening agents, anti-aging creams and other personal care products that are el-natural.

Wakoko....surprised? I rarely engage in advertising products that I do not trust and personally use. I know that this post is completely unlike any other posts that I have done before thus, all the more that you should trust it.
They are completely safe and they are very potent. They are a bit pricey but they are worth it since the effects ARE IMMEDIATE!

You can order them via this link: http://www.facebook.com/xielovi

Signing off for the mean time...

North Bound - Experience Vigan

2010-10-11T07:39:00.021+08:00

It was something that we and Glen have planned since last year.

We wanted to explore what made the Northern Ilocos Region such a rage for local and foreign visitors alike.

Our ultimate destination was Pagudpod. I was in charge of the itinerary and I immediately knew that Glen would not be too happy if we had to drive 8 hours straight to our destination. He's not too much into long driving. He'd end up cranky and I'd be cranky too.

I have planned our path to be a lot more relaxing. Since I was also crazy for churches and history, I made sure that each car stop would have an interesting "old" place to discover.

VIGAN

We've been to Vigan a number of times already. The first time was just me and Glen. It was a magical moment because it was the very first time that I was so far away from home plus I was with someone who I was in love with!

The best thing about Vigan is that you feel transported back in time. Even the smell of the city feels so 15th century.

The conquering Spaniards actually set foot on this old city in June 12, 1572. There were tons of changes already since that time but I personally guarantee that you could still feel what it was like back then.

If you are conscious about your budget, don't be. It's a trip that would not only leave you fulfilled because of the sights but it would also make you think like you've spent so little to get to experience so much!

There are numerous hotels and lodges that you can choose from. We personally picked the Vigan Heritage Mansion because it is in the center of the city plus it had the comforts of the modern world (TV, hot and cold shower, fridge) but the aura of early 19th century. The budget per night would range from Php2,600 to Php4,000 for 2 people. This would include free breakfast for two already.

Other options would include Cordillera Inn Hotel, Grandpa's Inn, Casa Teofila Lodge, La Feliza Tourist Inn.

The places to visit are numerous!

Vigan Church

The Burgos Plaza

The Lake of Burgos Plaza

The Vigan Heritage Village

Bantay Church

The Bantay Bell Tower

Baluarte

Burnayan

Vigan's Hidden Garden

Crisologo Museum

and a lot more!

MOVIE MARATHON: Theme of my days off

2010-02-25T11:58:00.008+08:00

I am 25 years old and I only get to have a break 2 days in a week. My work load makes me feel like I am already 50 and I should be taking the best out of any break that I get. I should be lounging in the nearest beach or maybe club hopping by night. I mean, come on! I need to get a life!

(Sigh)

Nonetheless, though I get to lead a less adventurous life, I try make it less boring. Last week, I watched PERCY and the LIGHTNING THIEF in SM Cinema. Aside from the improved print outs of the tickets, the movie was not really... hmmm.. memorable. It was more of a modernized version of the HERCULES adventures that I used to watch when I was kid. I actually enjoyed the trailers more.

I am currently looking forward to watching CLASH of the TITANS and COP OUT. The trailers of these particular movies showed off amazing utilization of screen effects that today's technology can offer.

While waiting for them, a while ago, I went off and watched other movies that came out late of last year. The PRINCESS and the FROG was a Disney cartoon film that featured a Black American Princess. It was a mix of Cinderella meets the Frog prince with a twist of Louisiana voodoo culture. It was a feel good movie and it made the idealistic girl in me believe in happy endings all over again.

Next movie was ALVIN and the CHIPMUNKS 2: The Squeakquel. I honestly liked PART 1 better. I could very much summarize the surprising parts into 2 things: the girl chipmunks that were also singers (but not really much because they litterally looked like girl versions of The Chipmunks) and the guest appearance of Charice Pempengco. It's basically a feel good movie for kids.

The LOVELY BONES had the deepest meaning amongst the movies that I've watched this past two weeks. It was a story about a 14 year old girl who could not move on in the after life because she wanted her murder to be brought to justice first. To lose a loved one over a senseless crime is probably one of the hardest thing that one has to go through. This movie showed how the girl's family struggled to heal and to understand that moving on does not mean forgetting. Watching it made me appreciate the fact that the members of my family are all whole and hearthy and that I would do anything to keep them safe.

The most intriguing was The FOURTH KIND. It had an atmosphere of truth to it. The director made the movie like an actual re-enactment. Alledged true to life videos of interviews with the abducted people of Nome, Alaska were also running side by side with the movie and if you are the type that really has an open mind... you might end up... believing. Watch it and see for yourself.

HOUSE HUNTING

2010-01-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

I am officially house hunting!
Strictly Baguio based...
Errr... ok, if it is in La Trinindad or in neighboring areas, I will consider.
Budget is 1M to 1.5M
Please email me at vhaboc@gmail.com or text me at 0916-395-5495 if you have offers.

HAITI and the memories that it brought back.

2010-01-29T05:58:00.000+08:00

I was around 6 years old when the 1990 Baguio Earthquake struck.
I don't have much details in my memory. I just remember being cold and afraid.
I remember my mom hugging me and my sister close to her side while she was carrying my brother (he was still a baby then). I remember that I was not wearing any slippers and that my feet were so cold. I remember the rain, but my young mind was wondering why the droplets seemed liked small stones landing on my feet.

I remember sleeping under a big tent together with the other children and their Mamas and their Papas. It was like a slumber party only it was not much fun because everyone seemed so afraid. When I got older, I realized that my family was one of the lucky ones because we did not end up homeless. Luckier still because we all survived.

All these memories came flashing back when the Haiti Tragedy struck.

I feel for the children.
I know how it's like to wonder if everything will be ok again.

This post is to officially help make everyone aware that there are a lot of Haiti locals right now that are in need of our help. They need food, medicine, water and clothing.
If there's anyway that we could help, let's reach out.

1st Entry for 2010

2010-01-28T22:43:00.003+08:00

Amazing.
I realized that I had one entry for the year 2009 and that was it.
Parang feeling ko tuloy... napaka-uneventful ng buhay ko ng taong 2009.

That is not true though. I finally got approved for the OMTT role last July 2009. It was also my 1st time to ride on board a plane and be on a place outside of Luzon - Bohol. Oh, and of course, I also won another award, Top Coach for 1st Quarter of 2009.

All in all, I still can't help but feel that my journey last year was one big struggle. It was like... being there... but watching myself from afar at the same time.

Hanep na description ba?

Hehehe. But this year, i want to make it different. I want to make sure that something explosive will happen that will mark a milestone in my life.

Amen.

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACCCK!!!

2009-01-25T10:58:00.004+08:00

AHAHAHAHAHHHA!!!!
DIYOS KOH!!!!
NGAYUN LANG AKO NAKAPAGSULAT MULI!
WAKEKEKEKE
MARAMI AKONG KWENTO. AS IN.
SA NGAYUN... GUSTO KO LANG MUNA MAG-JUMP-JUMP SA MGA BLOGS NG IBANG MGA TAO.
"GETTING THE FEEL OF IT..." IKA NGA NG IBA.

Ang Aking Inspirasyon

2009-01-04T12:54:00.000+08:00

O.M.G.

Hindi ako makapaniwala. Heto na ang pagkakataon na pinaka-hihintay ko. Bali-balita ang ahente na cute daw at ubod ng gentleman na papasok sa Kapuso Network.

Eh di hayun na nga...siyempre, mega-abang kami. Hindi rin namin napigilang mag-occular inspection. Matangkad siya. May dimples. Cute ang smile. Kalbo. Cute ang mata. Mukhang mabait...mukhang malinis.

Mas lalu pa akung natuwa nang malaman kong magiging ahente ko pala siya. /wahaha

Kung sinusuwerte ka nga naman. /wahaha

Kagabi ay unang bese kong narinig ang ikanyang boses. /blush

Mababa ang boses niya, malambing sa tenga... subalit:

Pogi8: Cots, the customer was asking ip, ip, it's fossible to relod her account that she doesn't receive yet?

/shock

Hayzzz.

NEW YEAR NA!!!

2008-12-31T16:32:00.010+08:00

AHAHAHAHAH!!! Maligayang bagong taon sa inyong lahat!!! Sana'y ang lahat ay nagkaroon ng kahit isang masayang ala-ala sa 2008 para naman kahit papano'y hindi lang kahirapan at taas ng pamasahe't bilihin ang maalala sa taong ito.

Sana'y sa 2009:

umunlad ang mga naghihirap

magkaroon ng sapat na pagkain para sa lahat

magpahinga muna ang mga walang pagod sa pakikipag-giyera

mas tumatag pa ang mother nature laban sa mga mapag-samantala

madiskubre ang mga gamot para sa mga uber grabeng sakit

makarma ang mga corrupt

ma-inlove ang mga tigang (para naman magkaroon na ng love life at sex life na rin)

manalo pa si Manny ng maraming laban...wakekekek

MALIGAYANG BAGONG TAON SA LAHAT!!!!

Hayun Eh!

2008-12-24T05:13:00.001+08:00

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.

And that's marriage - with the right person.

You're serious about settling down some time soon.

Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

Wrong Kind of Inspiration

2008-12-22T19:48:00.003+08:00

Nagmomonitor ako ng remote 3 days ago... napansin ko na pag di alam ng mga ahente na nakikinig ako sa tawag nila eh kung anu-anong kagaguhan ang pinagsasabi nila sa mga customer:

"Please send us a dispute letter to our mailing address and mail it via email..."

Blogger: (tayo sa station...sugod sa station ng ahente) What the hell are you saying!?!

"It's ok if you sue us, sir..because I know that it's your right. And I'm happy that you are exercising your rights."

Blogger: Oh God...kill me now... please.

"You have reached the right department ma'am...that's why I will be transferring you to our Lost and Stolen department because that it the right department."

Blogger: PUNye$%#!!!!!!! San ba pinagkukuha tong mga (tooot-tooo) na toh? Kung di ba naman kasi (toooot-toooo)....

Hayyzzzz. Haggard. Kaya naman naisipan kong mag side-by-side monits nalang.

Kahapon....

Agent: Coach, I'm aware of you too much...I can't concentrate.

Blogger: Ha??? Aware, my ass. Just answer the gawdamed call. (wahahahah... hanep sa taray!)

Halos hindi makapagsalita yung ahente. JUICE ko!!! Sinasabi ko na at lahat kung ano ang gagawin... wala pa rin!!!!

Blogger: WTF is wrong with you?

Friend ni Agent: Coach, he cannot talk if you're near him coz he likes you! Can't you see, everytime your near, he gets tongue tied! You inspire him too much!

HAYZZZZ....

STILL RESTLESS??!!!!

2008-12-13T19:27:00.000+08:00

Naka-anim na pocketbooks na ako in a span of a week. OMG.
Paubos na ang 13th month pay ko sa kabibili ng libro para lang di ako mamatay sa boredom.
Packsyet na sakit ito. High maintenance!
ISH!!!

PROJECT FRENZY... still restless

2008-12-12T18:20:00.000+08:00

Just finished an art work project. It was another attempt to appease my somewhat "hunger to complete things" fever that has afflicted me 2 weeks ago.
Grrrr. I'm still wondering what could have caused this.
They did say that the EBOLA strain from pork meat found in the market is not harmful to people, right?

This art work is a nice concept for a gift... especially that the Season of Giving is just a few days away. How do you do it?

First, you have to have a nice, plain, smooth wood where you could draw the outline of the figure that you would be working on. Then, you'd have to rip old newspaper into small pieces, blend it with water and dye and....ah, huh?
Oh, too hard?
Well, ok, fine. You can actually buy the materials in SM (Baguio--- duh?).
Then all you have to do is fill up the spaces with your desired colors.
The art work set usually depends on the size of the board. This set cost Php70 only.

FYI. The "heart" part was actually done by Glen. He's such a kid sometimes. He wants to try all the things that I do. Wakekekek. Then he gets bored and gets back with his play station.

PROJECT FRENZY

2008-12-11T17:38:00.007+08:00

I'm not sure where this restlessness is coming from. Grrrrr. It's like I'm always itching to do something... complete something.
I have just completed the Vigan Scrapbook. Akala ko ok na eh... akala ko eh mejo magpapahinga na yung utak ko sa kakaisip ng kung ano pa ang pwedeng gawin.

Front cover of the scrap book. If you're asking if I designed and made it myself.... you are sooo mistaken. I am not that creative.

First page. In fairness, it took me sometime to look for the appropriate materials that would compliment the "Vigan" theme. I had to make sure that the background paper was not glossy, para di na niya i-out-gloss yung pictures. Tapos I had to look for sticker sets with vintage feel.

Heto na... this is a sample of one of the 18 pages of the scrapbook. The text are all handwritten... by me of course. Hindi ganun kaganda ang handwriting ng aking mahal na nobyo kaya di pwedeng sa kanya. Wakekeke.

This is another of those pages. Tapos ko na siya... at sabi ni Baby, we have to have the Hundred Island pictures printed para daw may gawin ulit ako. Hmmm... I secretly wondered if he just really liked how I did this one or if he just wanted me to be busy so that I'd stop pestering him.

Hayyzzzz.... what to do pa kaya?

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2008-12-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

THE PACQUIAO MAGIC

2008-12-07T12:51:00.004+08:00

Kapit bahay: Pare, dito ka na nood sa amin. Wala pa yung laban ni Pacquaio. Puro undercards palang. Kape muna tayo habang nag-aantay.

Kapit-bahay 2: Ah ganun ba? Cge, salamat. Sira kasi TV sa bahay. Salamat, pare.

Papunta akong store para bumili ng load nang marinig ko ang usapang iyon. Normal na yun pag may laban si Pacquiao... salu-salo mga kapit-bahay namin dun sa isang bahay na may pinaka-malaking sala.

Ang hindi normal ay yung "mag-pare" na narinig kong nag-usap ay matagal nang kilala na may alitan...as in pramis, 3 months na alitan! Shucks! What a reunion!

Tignan mo nga naman. Naririnig mo ba ang katahimikan? Parang halos maririnig mo ang karayom na babagsak sa lupa. Har Har Har. Asteeg talaga mga Pilipino. Pagka isyu sa gobyerno, sa korupsiyon, sa giyera sa Mindanao o di kaya sa presyo ng langis, kahirap mapag-isa ang mga sari-saring opinyon. Pero pagdating sa pagsuporta kay Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao... nyahahahah... OMG. Kulang nalang eh magsalo-salo ang mga Abu Sayaff at mga sundalo ng Pilipinas sa cheer sa kanya.

Tsk. Oh well...

Atleast may moments of peace.

Para sayo Pacquiao, minsan mo na namang pinagkaisa ang mga Pilipino sa pagsuporta sayo. Iba talaga magic mo dude. Mabuhay ka!!

PACQUIAO RULES!!! Sabi na tutumba sa DE LA HOYA eh. WOOOOHOOOO!!!!

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2008-12-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

Tribute to a Friend - Ian Quinto, you will be missed.

2008-12-04T17:11:00.005+08:00

Sandali lang tayo nagkasama.
Pero I still felt the loss...
Pano pa kaya sa mga taong talagang malapit sayo?
Sana, kung nasan ka man... masaya ka.
Sa susunod na pagkikita, dude.

Invisible To You

2008-11-30T06:26:00.003+08:00

Hayzzz... ang kabataan nga naman. Ibang iba na talaga ang henerasyon ngayun. Dati-rati, si BOYLET ay kinakailangan pang magsibak ng kahoy at mag-igib ng ga-dosenang balde para lang mapalapit sa GURLAH.

Ngayun... OMG... kulang nalang ay mag- lap dance pa si GURLAH para lang mapansin ni BOYLET!!!

GURLAH: Coach, bakit siya ganun? Ang manhid niya??!!! Kanina pa ako nagpapapansin! Ni hindi man lang siya makaramdam!

Blogger: Baka naman kasi Judingger-Z ang papables mo?

GURLAH: Hindi coach.... lalake siya.

Blogger: Hmmm... looks can be deceiving, you know.

GURLAH: Eh si BOYLET po yun eh. Diba kayo din nagsabi na barako siya?

Blogger: Ay, uu nga.

Lumipas ang mga isang buwan siguro. Akala ko'y natapos na ang kahibangan ni GURLAH kay BOYLET. Ngunit isang gabi...

GURLAH: Hoy ano ka bah! Ba't ang manhid mo?!! Kanina pa kita inaayang sumayaw... ba't ayaw mo?

BOYLET: Ha? Di kaya... cge sayaw tayo!

(Background Music: Disturbia by Rihanna)

GURLAH: Coach, bakit ganun? Pag kami nagsasayaw, ni hindi niya man lang ako hawakan?

Blogger: Sigurado ka bang hawak ang gusto mo o yapos?

GURLAH: Coach naman!

Blogger: Hayyzz... kasi naman. Ang obvious mo kaya.

GURLAH: Eh, I like him eh.

Blogger: Exactly! You like him and you're making it too easy for him. Tsk, di mo ba alam na ang mga lalake, they usually like challenges?

(After mga ilang dance music pah...)

Blogger: Tsk, pag nakikipagsayaw ka, wag masyadong mabilis... dapat slow and easy ang galaw. The goal is to seduce.... not to tire him.

(Tamang-tama namang tumugtog ang kantang Low by Florida.... subalit pagkatapos nito...)

GURLAH: Coach, ayoko na! Nakakainis siya. Ano ba ako? Invisible?

Blogger: Tsk, hay naku... kailangan mo ng crash course training sa "How to Deal with Boys - 101".

GURLAH: (halos mangiyak-ngiyak)

Blogger: Hayaan mo na. Pasalamat ka nalang at kahit na halos i-alay mo na ang sarili mo sa kanya eh ginalang ka pa rin niya.

GURLAH: (Sniff, sniff)

Blogger: Isa pa, if you're looking for someone to rid you of your innocence... wag na siya, he can break your heart in the process.

GURLAH: Pero...

Blogger: Mr. Right will come along soon enough. Right now, let's just enjoy the music.

Freebies??

2008-11-29T02:59:00.003+08:00

My Credit Card bill just came in today...

I owe the bank sumtin' sumtin' pesos and some cents.

Along with the billing statement, there were some sheets advertising some freebies that I could take advantage of this season.

Buy 1 FLAT SCREEN TV and you get 50% discount when you buy sound system.

I thought it was not bad. So I checked the TV price and it was like: Php42,000.

I checked the sound system price... Php20,569.75

Packsyet. No Thanks.

Then I go checking the other promos.

BUY 1 HD TV in any SM Dept store and you get a cake from Red Ribbon for free!!!

I go scratchin' my head... how much is the damned TV?

Php19,599.50???!!

I'd rather buy the gawdamned cake from Red Ribbon!

Hayzzz.

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2008-11-29T02:38:00.000+08:00

F.U.C.K.

2008-11-16T20:06:00.003+08:00

Did you know that the oh so famous vulgar word that has a version in almost all language in the world actually is speculated to have originated in 772 AD?

Yeah... it's a word as old as time.

According to historians, the word "fuck" was first used when an Anglo-Saxon king, King Offa of Mercia to be exact, granted land to a bishop.
On the decree, it was documented that the King granted the Bishop seven estates and one of them was named Fuccerham, a place where coupling and mating is condoned.

Hmmm... this is probably where they got the backronym (false etymology): Fornication Under Consent of King.

You might be wondering why I'm blogging about this. Let's just say it's one of those trivias that amused me.

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2008-11-16T20:05:00.001+08:00

MORBID JACOB

2008-11-16T09:27:00.007+08:00

Hindi ko kilala si Jacob. I just saw him sa isang party ng isang kaibigan. Pero ito daw ang kanyang kuwento.

(Disclaimer: Ang mga pangalan ay napalitan para protektahan ang mga tunay na katauhan sa kuwentong ito.... nyahahaha)

Nung High school... Christmas break noon eh... me and my girlfriends were dressing up for a grown-up party. Si Jam (totoong pangalan) ay anak ng isang may-ari ng radio station (wag na nating banggitin... baka mabasa ito ng mom niya at ma-bann ako sa bahay nila) kaya naman pag may party para sa radio station eh automatic na invited na kami.

Henyways... dun sa party ay napansin namin si Jacob. I never got to talk to him pero, kahit sino sigurong babae eh mapapansin siya. Matangkad, may dimples, mayaman, matalino daw at... oh yeah... mukhang model... yung tipong mga lalake na nasa gay magazines mo makikita. Wahahaha. Sinful thought, pero true. Hindi siya nung nasa picture. But this is the only pic that I could find that closely resembles him.

Anyway, me and my girlfriends were ooohing and ahhhing his looks when Jam said:
"Alam niyo ba, when I was a kid, I remembered his mom talking to my mom. I remembered that she mentioned something na may sa-demonyo daw yung anak nila."

Siyempre, ako naman:
Blogger: Halllerrr. Girl, are we not too old for ghost stories?

Candice: Why did the mom say that?

Lea: Baka naman may sadistic side si pogi.

Jam: Hindi eh...

Jacob was the only son of a couple na pag titignan mo, parang Aga and Charlene. Perfect match. Gwapo at successful ang guy. Maganda, sexy at mayaman din naman ang girl. Sabi ni Jam, during that night nung nakita niyang nag-uusap yung mom niya at yung mom ni Hot Hunky Jacob (itago nalang natin sa pangalang Charlene), umiiyak daw si Charlene. Para siyang nagpapanic na di maintindihan.

Paulit-ulit daw na sinabasi ni Charlene na nagsisisi na siya sa nagawa nila ng kanyang asawa (na itatago natin sa pangalang Aga).

Jerry: Ano bang nagawa nila?

Jam: Well, mom asked her the same thing. But she was too hysterical and it took an hour before she could say something coherent.

Blogger: You were an eavesdropper even as a kid?

Jam: Well, it was not my fault. They were too noisy and all I really wanted was to get water from the kitchen. It’s not as if I planned to listen.

Lea: Tsk. Wag ka na nga kasing kumontra jan, Vida. Dali na Jam, what were they talking about?

Parang nag-alangan pa si Jam nun.

Jam: Wag niyo itong banggitin kay Mommy ha. I think I’m not supposed to know this eh.

Candice: The secret is safe with us (sabay smirk).

Jam: I heard Tita Charlene admit na Jacob was not their 1^stchild. She said that 2 years before Jacob was born , they had a kid who was not perfect.

Blogger: There’s no such thing as a perfect kid. They cry all night and poop all day.

Jam: (exasperated) Hayyzz. No, not that kind of imperfection. I think the baby was deformed. Kasi sabi ni Tita Charlene, di daw niya masikmura na tignan yung bata.

Jerry: Nge! Di naman kasalanan nung bata yun. What did Tito Aga say?

Jam: Tita Charlene said that her husband accused her of all sorts of things. Kesyo she was not careful during the pregnancy period. Kesyo she tried to get rid of the baby. Those things. Tita Charlene said that it really put a great strain on their relationship. Until one day, they both snapped.

Lea: Hmmm… nakakapanindig balahibo naman yan.

Jam: Sinabi mo pa. Wait till you hear the rest of the story.

Blogger: Don’t tell me they killed the baby.

Jam: That’s exactly what happened.

Candice: Grabeh. Pano nila natago yun?

Jam: Nasa States palang sila nun. Itinapon daw nila yung bata sa daan. Errrr… sa bangin to be exact. They did it habang may bagyo.. para walang makapansin.

Blogger: Oh my god.

Nasa isang table kami noon eh. Nagbubulungan tapos sabay-sabay na sumusulyap sa kinauupuan ni Jacob.

Jam: After 2 years, Jacob was born. And he was exactly what they wanted their baby to be. Perfect.

Blogger: Ok…. He’s perfect… but?

Jam: That night na andun si Tita Charlene sa bahay, mga 6 or 7 years old palang si Jacob nun. There was also a storm during that time. She said na nagising daw siya at andun si Jacob sa may paanan ng bed nilang mag-asawa. Nagising din daw si Tito Aga. And then Jacob asked them:

“Ma, Dad? Itatapon niyo ba ulit ako?”

It Was Not Meant To Be...huling kabanata

2008-11-10T20:40:00.001+08:00

Paano na kaya - Bugoy

PART I

PART II

PART III

PART IV

PART V

Ang Pag-amin
This is my favorite part of the story.. pano ba naman kasi... sabi nila ... ang best time of your life daw eh High School... people were right. Coz all kakornihans happen during this time. Wakekekekek.

So, where was I? Ah... oo.. ang pangalawang sulat. Heto, walang edit dito.. as in eto yung mga exact words. Kinailangan ko pang halungkatin ang karton na halos may 8 years worth of dust...

Nov 21, 2000
8:20 P.M.

Vida,

Siguro by the time na mabasa mo 'tong letter, nasa Twin peaks na ako, o kaya nasa school pa rin. Pero one thing for sure, ayoko ng concept ng letter na 'to pero itutloy ko pa rin...

Siguro nga tama ka - we're too close for comfort, sobra na ang pagiging close natin (noon). Siguro yun rin ang reason kung bakit nagkakaganito ako.

Alam mo, sorry talaga pero, each day na nakikita kita, I'm falling in love with you and I can't stop it...(corny).

Can you blame me? Tao lang naman ako diba? Kahit paano alam ko ring main-love... pero bakit sa'yo pa? Bakit sa bestfriend ko pa?

Sorry talaga - hindi ko ine-expect na ma-i-in love ako sayo.

.........

I'm not expecting you to love me in return. I'm just going to wait until this fades away.

My reaction? Well.. I cried. Tsk. Uu... isa akong cry baby. I cried coz I felt like I've waited for so long to hear those words from him. And when he finally did... well.. hayun na nga.

Blogger: Oh my god...
Lelay: Bakit daw? Ano sabi sa sulat?
Blogger: Oh my god.. (sabay iyak... habang tumatawa...)
Lelay: Ano ka ba... para ka namang baliw eh...

Para talaga akong baliw... binasa ko kasi yung sulat sa may aparador ng walis at lampaso. Hayzzz. Can you just imagine? Umiiyak ako katabi ng mga walis... at nakaupo naman ako sa lampaso. LORD!

Lelay: (pagkatapos basahin ang sulat...) Aba.. sa wakas, umamin din ang kaibigan mong torpe.
Blogger: Pero ba't sabi niya he did not want it to happen?
Lelay: Sus! Eh alam mo naman kung gaano kataas ang pride nun! Kaya nga halus magtumbling siya nung nanliligaw yung mga officers sayo eh. Nasa denial stage pa siya nun... pero baliw na yun sayo dati pa.
Blogger: Ha? So yun yung packsyet na dahilan? He was already in love with me during that time? Bakit di nalang niya sinabi? Bakit may pa: "I don't want to be your friend... I don't want to be your friend" pa siya?
Lelay: Well.. ganun talaga. Gagu rin yun eh.
Blogger: Oh my god (LORD! Lumuluha parin ako... OMG. Parang kamatis pa man din ang ilong ko pag umiiyak ako)
Lelay: Ano na gagawin mo ngayun?
Blogger: Aamin na rin ba ako?
Lelay: Hindi ba dapat lang? Para naman lumiwa-liwanag ang pagkatao ni Ali. Ilang linggo na ring sobrang moody nun eh... nakakasawa na.

Umamin din ba ako? Ahahaha. Naman!

Nasa CAT office nun si Ali eh.. bumaba pa ako dun...

Blogger: Packsyet ka! Anong ibig sabihin ng sulat na toh?
Ali: Medic, you're in the office. What you're doing is insubordination.
Blogger: I don't give a damn! I want to know if what you wrote here is true.
Ali: (sulyap sa likod... nakatingin ang ibang officers) This is not the venue for this.
Blogger: (iiral ang katigasan ng ulo) Totoo ba nakasulat dito?
Ali: Eh kung hindi ka ba naman reyna ng dense! Malamang totoo yan diba?
Blogger: Eh bakit ngayun lang?
Ali: (taas ng kilay) It's better to be late than sorry.
Blogger: (hayzzz) Akala ko ba eh in love kay kay Jen (Heaven)?
Ali: I lied.
Blogger: How do I know you're not lying this time?
Ali: (ipinikit ang mata ng panandalian... parang humihingi ng pasensiya mula sa Diyos na Lumikha) What I did... what I just admitted.. may cost me your friendship... I cannot, will not lie about something like this.
Blogger: Well... it's just bloody time you admit it. Coz... I've been head over heels for you since Junior Year.
CO: (pumapalakpak) Salamat sa magandang palabas. Nakakakilig sana... pero istorbo kayo dito sa opis. At dahil jan, Haboc... 20 push-ups, now! Hernandez, give me 50!

Nyahahhhahaa. Syempre... mejo edited muli ang version na yan.

Pero all in all... ang daming feelings na biglang nagsurface...
Relief - kasi he felt the same way pala.
Happiness - coz finally, I thought we'd be together.
Worry - naisip ko... hindi ko pala siya pwedeng maging boyfriend. My mom and dad would die of heart attack (uber strict kasi sila noon).
Dread - malapit na ang graduation noon ... feeling ko.. we were just beginning to realize how deep the feelings were... and College might end it all.

College did end it all.

THE END
It was a relationship that could have been but there never was. Ewan ko ba... when the cards were all on the table already... parang hindi na kontrolado yung mga events.
Hindi kami naging kami. We agreed na wag na muna... not after college. Besides, Ali knows how strict my Mom was. He did not want to mess with my parents.

We started walking home together more often... and holding each other's hand had a kilig effect already... pero ang problema... parang masyado nang maraming bagay sa pagitan.

There were too many questions unanswered. Ang daming issues na hindi namin mapag-usapan kasi parang walang time tapos walang privacy.
Tapos isa pa... I felt like he was bloody afraid to be alone with me. Ish. As if naman gagahasain ko siya??? Halllerrrr???!!!

I felt like we were always looking at each other pero may glass wall between us. Laging so near... yet so far...

So hayun na nga... antayan, plus pride, plus a lot of friends, plus tampuhan almost all the time, plus summer without seeing each other, plus college na magkaiba kami ng course.... equals wala na.
We were just kids...trying to make adult decisions... ang problema, the decisions resulted to closing the romantic chapter and just keeping it to just plain friendship.

How it ended?
Well.. I think I finally got tired of always waiting for him...
I mean, it was College Years already. Unlike nung High School, na atleast may familiar face akong nakikita. Pero this time... wala na. Everyone was a stranger.

I took up BSIT course, during our freshman year, our batch composed of 21 sections. Akalain mo yun? Tapos, Ali was taking up a Human Sci course, he was in the same building as I was. Nasa Perfecto kami nun... yun nga lang... mostly 4th floor siya, ako naman 6th floor. Hayzzz... so near yet so far na naman ang eksena. Tapos mega-antay pa ako na sunduin niya ako... or ihatid.. or sabayan sa lunch... pero wala eh... alangang ako yung maggagagawa nun eh ako yung girlalu... halerrrr!
For 1 whole sem... parang feeling ko.. wala na akong ginawa kundi mag-antay. Everytime na lalabas ako sa classroom para lumipat sa next class, I was always half expecting him to be there. For a young heart that was so in love... the waiting was too much... until it finally ended the fantasy of having a happy ever after with him.

Nung nanligaw si Kel (ex-boyfriend from college) ... I could not help but compare. Kel was so sure of himself... na parang nothing would stop him. And he was never afraid to tell me what he was feeling. Andun siya palagi... parang he would not allow anyone to keep us apart.
And so hayun na nga... one day.. ako naman ang nagbigay ng letter kay Ali:

I'm sorry... I know we promised to wait for each other until we're 21.
Maybe all this was really never meant to be...

The letter was not that simple though. Mejo ranting letter din siya. Sinabi ko sa kanya na parang I felt like he was always so hard to reach. Na parang laging ang layo layo niya. Parang KPI na pag naabot mo na... may "Wait, there's more" pa pala.

I know my version about what happened during college is probably one sided. And it may be unfair to Ali. Pero... pag may blog na rin siya at gumawa siya ng version niya... sabihan ko kayo.. ahihihi.

One time, nakapag-usap kami ni Lelay.. she told me that Ali felt like di siya makasingit sa circle of friends ko nung College. During that time, I was like:

Blogger: Hano!!?? Anong di makasingit? What kind of rason is that?

Pero thinking back... maybe it was the truth. Maybe he thought that since I had new friends, I had no room for him any longer.

In the end... as much as I wished na sana.. iba ang ending... I would not ask Lady Destiny to change the events between the hands of time. Kasi kung sakali... baka di ito nangyari:

August 2006 - sa Shooters.. 1 week old palang yung relationship namin ni Glen.

September 2006 - sa Padi's. Bar hopping kami nung day na toh. He would always make a way to make our day-offs the same ...

March 2007 - sa Vigan, Ilocos Sur. Gusto niyang ipakita sa akin ang wonders ng Vigan. Galing na kasi siya dito.

Dec 2007 - Covelandia, Pangasinan. We went there together with his family. Saya dito!

Feb 2008 - Manila. This was in some nice hotel. Sabi niya he'd treat me to some vacation sa Manila... yun pala ay awarding niya... he was the Top Coach for RCN ng year 2007. Congrats baby!

April 2008 - Alaminos, Pangasinan. Kararating namin nung day na ito. We were at the Pantalan. Naghahanap kami ng pagkakainan actually.

April 2008. Quezon Island, Pangasinan. Heto na nung nakapunta na kami sa isa sa mga malalaking isla sa 100 Islands ng Pangasinan. Astig dito!!!

Siguro noon.. parang kulang nalang.. hamunin ko ng suntukan si Lady Destiny dahil sa pakekealam niya. Pero ngayun... I can't thank her enough. Naisip ko kasi na if she did not intervene everynow and then during the past... I would not be enjoying my present... and my future would be totally different.

-fin-

$$patalastas uli$$

2008-11-10T06:10:00.001+08:00

$$ singit lang... patalastas$$

2008-11-10T06:03:00.000+08:00

It Was Not Meant To Be...part 5

2008-11-02T15:37:00.008+08:00

PART I

PART II

PART III

PART IV

4th Year HS - The Joining

Seniors na kami. Ahahaha. It had a nice ring to it. As usual, Juniors vs. Seniors parin. Last year, champions ang Juniors sa Cheering Competition (kami yun) at nakabonus pa kami. Dahil kasi sa pikon ang mga Seniors... binato namin sila ng mga water balloons... wakekekek. Pero anyway... reversed na. It was the year 2000.. ang taon ng Y2K virus. Ito ang school year na pinaka mahaba at pinaka-maikli at the same time.

Required na ang pag-join sa C.A.T. Required na ang pag-march-march sa ilalim ng mainit na araw. Ali was one of the officers. I forgot what his position was...basta, he was some sort of high ranking.

I did not like it at first, but then, dahil close na rin kami kay Alelie (Lelay), mas na-enganyo kami. And all of a sudden, the whole W5A was intrigued and excited to be one of the Medics. Well, aside from the fact na ayaw namin nabababad sa ilalim ng araw... being a Medic was actually fun!

When we were made official members of The Medic Squad... I also realized that Ali's world and mine have just collided ... or so I thought.

The Langaw is Now a Butterfly
I am a quick learner... and like I said... madali magdevelop ang aking defense mechanism... plus I'm a great friend - well, trying hard to be a great friend, that is. At any rate, I have decided to just stamp my feelings and just support my friend. I did not want any heart aches deepening the already wide gap between us.
In the meantime...

Caluza: Haboc, may gagawin ka ba mamaya?
Blogger: Sir? Uhm... meron po, sir... baket po? May training po ba ulit para sa Medics?
Caluza: Wala. (walk-out)
Lelay: Crush ka ni Caluza.
Blogger: Nyah??! Talaga?
Lelay: Wag kang ma-impress. Gagu yun eh.
Blogger: (salute) Ma'am, yes ma'am!

Tapos...
Cordova: Haboc, crush ko si dela Cruz (Jam) ...lakad mo naman ako.
Blogger: Sir, kausapin niyo nalang ho si Jam.
Cordova: O cge...ikaw nalang magbigay ng sulat na ito sa kanya. Wag ka na mag-march bukas.
Blogger: Packsyet na mga officers to...

Heto pa...
Lelay: Pinapabigay ng isang officer.
Blogger: Er...ano toh?
Lelay: Eh ano pa, eh di love letter!
Blogger: Nge!!! Akala ko ba bawal manligaw ng subordinate?
Lelay: Pag officers na, pwede na.
Blogger: Nyeta naman oh...

At ang pinaka-matindi sa lahat, mismong ang aming commanding officer!
CO: Haboc, pwede ba kitang maging partner sa isang ball for ROTC?
Blogger: (muntik nang maibagsak yung hawak-hawak na wooden gun...packsyet, magtanong ba naman ng OMG na tanong at manggulat sa formation mismo) Ho?
CO: Magpapaalam ako mismo sa parents mo kung gusto mo.
Blogger: Er....

Hayun na nga. Dahil nga siguro sa ang aming barkada (Jam, Leah, Agnes, Daryll, at Jerry) ay ang tanging mga medic na galing sa Science Section ...kaya siguro lagi kaming pinagtri-tripan. Kung hindi laging sinisita o pinaparusahan... lagi namang inaasar na liligawan ng kung sinu-sino. Hay Lord.
Feeling ko, ito yung nagtrigger ng "pag-amin". Bwahahahaha. Kung iisipin ko ngayun... nakakatawa talaga... pero nung nangyayari yun... gusto kong literal na patayin si Ali.

The Good-Bye
Isang araw, may binigay na sulat sa akin ang mokong kong bespren.
Ali: Basahin mo...
Blogger: Uhm...anu tu?
Ali: (walk-out)
Blogger: Packsyet.

At that time... I knew something was wrong. He had been acting weird for the past few days. Parang lahat ng manliligaw ko... may side comment siya lagi. It was flattering ... to learn that his brotherly instincts were being alerted...

Ha? Si Caluza? Dugyot kaya yun... di ka bagay dun.

Cordova? Uhm, I think hindi talaga si Jam ang target nun... isa pa... pleazzze.. you deserve someone with a higher IQ.

Yung isa mong manliligaw? Eh mute yun eh. Tingin palang sayo, di na makapagsalita. Ano yun? Loser. Tsk

Yung CO? Er... wala akong masabi. My silence says it all.

Siguro nga isa akong dakilang madhid. Ali and Lelay both gave warnings. But I did not listen... actually, I did NOT WANT to listen. I did not want to dwell on the fact that my bestfriend liked someone else.. I liked him... and I'll be damned if I will not entertain others just for the sheer amusement of it. Hindi ako martyr. I move on fast... kaya niya siguro binigay yung letter.

Sabi sa letter:
I know we've been having a lot of disagreements lately. And I know you probably think that I'm the biggest ass for always trying to hold you back from fully entertaining THEM. I'm sorry but I cannot really stomach seeing them... being with you. So from now on... I'd be distancing myself. You're free to do whatever you want.

Well, he did not really say it that way exactly... Ali's not that harsh, it was just how I interpreted it. I talked to him after reading the letter.
Blogger: What exactly do you mean by this letter
Ali: It's pretty straightforward.
Blogger: Di ko maintindihan.
Ali: (buntong-hininga ... ang mukha ay isang parang nahihirapang ipa-intindi ang isang simpleng bagay sa bata) I don't want to be your friend anymore.
Blogger: WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
Ali: (walk-out)

Ahahahahah. Again, it did not really happen that way exactly. It was a lot more emotional... grrrrrr.
I was crying my eyes out. Hindi ko gets! I thought: That asshole will not be friends with me anymore just because I'm dating some of his co-officers?!! Aba!!! Napaka-hypocrite naman ng gagung yun!!! Eh halos kulang nalang halikan niya yung lupang tinapakan ng packsyet na "heaven" niya. OHHHH!!!! The nerve!!!!

Oh yes... after the tears... came the anger. I thought he was unfair. After swallowing my feelings for him just so we could keep our gawdamned friendship...this is how he'd bloody pay me?!?
Nasa park ako nun eh... Burnham park to be exact. I was already late for my class. But I did not care. I made a decision... if this is what he wanted, then I'll be more than bloody happy to comply.

Friends No More...
The day after that "friendship break-up", I still could not believe what he did. But I did stop talking to him already.
For two whole days, I pretended.. quite successfully and convincingly that he did not matter no more.
Friend: Blab blab blab... blab blab? Blab! Bla-lalalla bbb!
Blogger: Ah really?
Friend: Uy, si Ali o...
Ali: (dumaan)
Blogger: Huh? May sinabi ka? I believe we were talking about our classmates that you saw making out dun sa may aparador ng mga walis at lampaso?
Friend: Ah oo nga... blab...blab blab... blab-blab...blab?

Friend2: Hey, pakibigay naman to kay Ali. Please tell him that he needs to submit that to me.
Blogger: Tsk... sorry... I'm busy.
Friend2: Huh? You're not doing anything.
Blogger: Hayna! Precisely! I'm busy doing nothing. Bigay mo nalang yan kay Ara.

Lelay: Sasabay ka ba sa pag-uwi?
Blogger: Kasama ba si the-one-who-cannot-be-named?
Lelay: Oo naman.
Blogger: Wag na.
Lelay: Hayzzz. Di pa ba kayo ok?
Blogger: Di nah.

Leah: Parang di na yata kayo nag-uusap ng bespren mo?
Blogger: Huh? Sino?
Leah: Si Ali.
Blogger: Hmmm? Uh, ako bang kinakausap mo?
Leah: Sino pa ba?
Blogger: Well... never heard of the name. You must be mistaking me for someone else that you know.

It was torture. Pero yun yung gusto niya eh...ako ay isang ever accomodating na kaibigan lamang... Tapos isang araw...
Lelay: Binabawi na niya...
Blogger: (kunyari dense) Ang alin?
Lelay: Hindi niya kaya.
Blogger: Ang alin?
Lelay: Ano ka ba! Eh di gusto na niyang maging friends kayo ulit.
Blogger: (balik sa pagbasa ng pocketbook) Sorry. Ayoko na.
Lelay: Ba't naman?
Blogger: Ano ako? Kanin? Pag mainit pwedeng iluwa tapos pag ok na, isusubo ulit?
Lelay: Pagpasensiyahan mo na. Compused lang siya.
Blogger: Compused my ass.
Lelay: Kinausap ko na siya. He's miserable.
Blogger: Well manigas siya. Pakisabi he can suffer till kingdom comes. I don't give a damn anymore.

Ahahahah... joke lang... it did not happen that way. Sa isip ko lang yun. Actually, yan yung tumatakbo sa isip ko habang kinakausap ako ni Lelay... at kasama si Ali nun.

Ang totoong pangyayari:
Lelay: Gusto ka niyang kausapin.
Blogger: Bakit daw?
Lelay: Para magsorry... at para bawiin yung katangahang ginawa niya.

Actually... si Lelay yung nagsalita for Ali... at siyempre, dahil sa di ko matiis. I had to ask:
Blogger: Why did you do it?

It was a question that was not answered.... atleast not until he sent me another letter...

FINAL CHAPTER

It Was Not Meant To Be...part 4

2008-10-30T14:17:00.004+08:00

PART I

PART II

PART III

3rd Year HS - Sariling Mundo

It was something that was bound to happen eventually. Pagpasok namin sa Junior year...Ali was not Ali anymore.

Alam mo yung feeling na...you suddenly see someone like you've never seen them before?

For one, he was way taller than I remembered. And his voice... it sounded deeper. For the 1st time...yung concepts sa science textbook about adolescense took a different meaning... it happens pala talaga.

In a way, our Junior year emphasized that we were already approaching the dreaded moments...Graduation and College. Things were getting complicated. Our batch mates were not just having crushes...the boys were making ligaw and the girls were giving their matamis na oo already. I also realized that it was not just Vida and Ali anymore. It was Vida and Ali...and the whole world between us.

For me, I felt like everything was changing in a speed that I'm having a hard time keeping up with. Ali was not there all the time anymore. He became a member of the CAT. Suddenly, hindi na ako yung busy...siya na... and to top it all... they already moved out of the neighborhood. I remembered being depressed about that. But even back then... mabilis na talaga magdevelop ang defense mechanism ko over something that makes me sad. I decided that since he has found a whole new barkada...I'd be looking for my own din.

Nung 3rd year ko talagang nakilala at naging ka-close sina Jerry, Lea, Jam, and Candice...pati na rin sina Agnes at Daryll. We called our group, the W5A. Anong ibig sabihin? Wahehhhe...kinda corny...pero it meant Witches 5 Association. Nyaahahaha. Yeah...I know... we were so into anime and fantasies. Ewan ko... siguro isa siyang unconsious struggle to not grow up yet.

Tapos I became more active sa Archery Club. Tapos, 90% of my gimmicks were spent with the W5A. Tapos boys started catching my attention. And I noticed that I was also catching theirs. I guess this was when I started to master the art of "charming my way out" technique. Ahihihi.

Tapos ang dami dami pang activities... archery, yung school paper (errr...contributor lang...pero not an active member), mga school competition, projects, assignments, pocketbooks, sleep overs - slumber party, overnight para sa project (na kasama yung crush mo...pero di niya alam na crush ko siya), at ang dami dami pa.

In a way...I did miss Ali. I missed him more than I cared to admit. But at the same time... I was also having the time of my life.

Pero isang araw... I think I was about to go to the comfort room. Malapit na ang Cheering Competition noon. Nagsisimula na yung mga practice... pero di pa kami nagfo-formation sa Athletic Bowl. So pababa na ako sa hagdan nang biglang magkasalubong kami ni Ali.

It was the first time that I saw him wearing his fatigue uniform. Ewan ko ba... parang biglang naging void yung hagdan na kinatatayuan ko. I felt weightless. I was breathing too fast...or maybe I forgot to breath?

Ali: Oist! San ka?

Blogger: Er...CR.

He was standing infront of me then... and for the 1st time, I realized how tall he was.

Blogger: Ang tangkad mo na.

Ali: At ikaw naman, di ka na lumaki.

And then he smiled.

Buzzzzz. Buzzzz. Buzzzz.

The buzzing sound... it lasted for like 3 minutes. The whole time that we were talking. I was not hearing what he was saying no more. I was not sure if I was answering his queries properly. But judging by his laugh, I was still coherent... pero yun yung weird doon. Feeling ko dalawa naging ako... yung isa, yung bestfriend niya. Yung isa... someone falling ... for him.

Bwahahahaha. Packsyet!

Hoy Ali, pag nabasa mo ito...don't you dare laugh at me.

After nung faithful moment na yun...hay lord... the roller coaster ride started. It was not easy being with him or without him. Noong Cheering Practice... I had to exert an extra effort to make sure that he does not notice that I enjoyed seating next to him again. Simula pa kasi nung Freshmen year, basta Cheering na...kami yung magkatabi sa formation. Magalit na yung cheerleader at lahat... basta kami dapat yung magkatabi.

3 months before the end of our Junior Year... I could not deny it anymore. I was inlove with my damned bestfriend.

Kung Saan Ka Masaya, Suportahan Kita

After ng aking epiphany about my feelings for Ali, hayzzz... naging isang emotional battleground ang bawat paggising ko sa umaga.
Unti-unti ko ring naramdaman na yung security ng friendship ni Ali eh nawawala na. I realized na just like me...he also has his own circle of friends. Hayzz...tama sila, bilog nga ang mundo...kasi, I then realized that I am the odd man out. Pag nagsama-sama na sina Ali, Lelay, Ara at JL... pumapasok sila sa isang mundo na hindi ko mapasok.

Personally, it did not really matter that Ali had some other close friends. What bothered me the most was that he could not seem to confide in me anymore. Parang lagi na siyang naiilang sa akin. God...grabeh... it seemed liked I could literally hear my heart breaking back then... everytime I try to reach out..to somehow restore the closeness that we once had... and to just watch him drift father away.

The last straw was me learning that he was in love with his commanding officer in C.A.T. Nyahahha...juice koh! Feeling ko talaga nakalunok ako ng isang baso ng thumbtacks!
I still remember pausing... like I wanted to make sure that my heart was still beating. Or kung buo pa siya... kasi feeling ko lang eh parang may mga pieces nito na nagsilaglaggan sa lupa.

Lelay just showed me a picture of Ali's so called "heaven". She was really pretty. Feeling ko, isa akong langaw kumpara sa isang magandang paru-paro.
Damned! I just realized na best actress na ako noon pa. Coz I was hyperventilating inside, panicking, crying... but outside, I was smiling. I even cheered Ali on... even suggested that I can be a bridge to his flighty butterfly.
Blogger: Ang ganda niya... ano pang pumipigil sayo para ligawan siya?
Lelay: Torpe nga yan eh.
Ali: Officer ko siya... bawal yun sa C.A.T.
Blogger: Tang'na... buti naman.
Ali: Huh? May sinabi ka?
Blogger: What? Wala noh... I just said to hell with the rules. It's as if naman nasa totoong army kayo.
Lelay: Isa pa... nanliligaw din ang isang officer dun sa girl.
Blogger: Punyeta. So crush ng bayan pa pala siya? Crap. Tapos Senior pa siya. Why can't she just get her claws on her own kind and not look at Ali anymore?
Ali: Ano bang binubulong-bulong mo jan?
Blogger: Wala tol... ang sa akin lang...kung talagang mahal mo... go for it. (sabay walk out... the goddamned acting was taking it's toll... my eyes could not hold the tears much longer anymore).

PART V

It Was Not Meant To Be...part 3

2008-10-29T05:06:00.003+08:00

PART I

PART II

2nd Year HS - Taken for Granted

Hindi na kami magkaklase nung 2nd year...actually, never na kaming naging magkaklase pang muli. At first, it was ok. Ahhh...oo nga pala. Bago pa nagsimula ang 1998 school year...bati na kami. One hot summer afternoon... he called me... may landline pa kami noon. Akala ko nga si Jo-anne (bestfriend from elementary) yung tumatawag..pero it was him.

Blogger: Hello?

Ali: Sorry.

Blogger: Huh? Jo-anne, ikaw ba yan?

Ali: Ha? Sinong Jo-anne?

Blogger: Eh sino toh?

Ali: Si Ali...

Blogger: (3 seconds of silence. I think my heartbeat stopped for a while as well... and then...everything was back to normal) Ali...

Nung Sophomores na kami...we'd still go home together. Pero dahil nga di na kami classmates, my world grew bigger again. I met other people...made more friends. Highlight ng moments eh yung entreprenureal activities... me and some other girlfriends (Kat Exibia and Mabel Makil - miss you a lot girlfriends!!!) would be selling stuff to our classmates.

I became busier and busier.

By mid-schoolyear, I noticed as well that he has new circle of friends. Sina Ara, Marian and Sandra. Nung una, mejo yung territorial instincts ko eh na-tri-trigger. I didn't like seeing him having fun with others. I do not know how it developed but I started thinking of him as my bestfriend. Akin lang siya.

Yes, I know...I am freaky... pero ganun talaga ako nun. Posessive.

I relished the idea knowing that with one call...he'd be there...

Official member na ako ng Archery Team nung second year. And every time na may practice, he'd be waiting for me para sabay kaming umuwi. I knew nababagot siya...pero he'd still wait.

I got used to getting what I want when I'm around him... and thus I started taking his friendship for granted.

Naging mas madalas yung hindi namin pagsabay umuwi. Pag cleaners ako... inaantay niya ako. Pag cleaners siya... nakakalimutan kong mag-antay. Naiiwan siya. Nakita ko pa nga siya one time na naglalakad mag-isa... nakasakay na ako sa Jeep noon... then I saw him walking..

Blogger: Oh shit! I forgot that I'm supposed to wait for him! (guilty, guilty, guilty)

Yep...I'm an asshole. Gusto kong bumaba sa jeep...pero..naisip ko... kaya na ni Ali umuwi mag-isa. And I thought that he'd forgive me anyway. No matter what I did... he'd never stay mad at me that long anymore. After nung 3 month long na tampuhan... we sort of had a silent pact that we'd never have a fight that bad no more.

PART IV

It Was Not Meant To Be...part 2

2008-10-26T16:40:00.003+08:00

PART I

Hmmm...someone might be wondering why I'm writing all these. Well, sa totoo lang...I'm not really sure as well. I guess I just wanted these memories off my chest. And me writing it would help me...in one way or another.

The 3 month long tampuhan...

Ali is...was...er...pa'no ko ba sasabihin? Uhmmm...well, mahinhin. I was the girl but he tends to be the civilized one. Our classmates would usually tease him of being gay...I thought so too...but never voiced it out. I did not want to offend him.

One day, isang araw...I made that mistake...hayzzz...

Naglalakad kami papuntang Convention Center noon. We were supposed to watch something...our teachers said that we have to buy tickets and watch it or else wala kaming plus points.
Someone...another classmate...I think Dana was her name...was walking with us then. Since Ali and I joke each other all the time...I did not stop and think before asking him Dana's whispered question: "Bading ba siya?"

He got mad. It was the first time that I saw him mad. Tinapon pa nga niya yung popsicle stick sa akin. Arrrgh! Siyempre ako rin naasar. I was like: "Haler, dude, what's with the violent reaction??!! Just say 'NO'!"

Hindi kami nag-usap ng halos 3 months dahil dun. He refused to talk to me. My pride was too damned precious naman for me to say "I'm sorry".

Wala na akong kasabay umuwi. Wala na akong kaasaran. Wala nang laging nagpapatawa sa akin.

But back then...I didn't really know what I was missing. I thanked the moment when the Adviser rearranged the seat plan again. I made new friends. My world was bigger now...and I thought that I have to be more mature...thus I learned how to go home without holding on to someone anymore.

PART III

$$$ yey, patalastas!!! $$$

2008-10-26T13:21:00.001+08:00

It Was Not Meant To Be

2008-10-26T01:13:00.010+08:00

Questions, Questions...ish

Hindi ko alam kung bakit nagsimula yung subject matter...basta...one time...pauwi na ako...nakasakay sa jeep...at katabi ko ang isang matagal ko ng kakilala....since highschool.

Blogger: Sa San Vicente ka rin?

Friend: Di...bumibisita lang. Parent's ng husband ko. Dun sila nakatira sa San Vicente.

Di na ako nag-usisa. Sa 24 years kong pamamalagi sa aming "peaceful" barangay...ni minsan ay di ako gumawa ng effort para makilala ang aking community. Maybe it was how Mom raised us. Nung mga kids pa kasi kami...she'd usually forbid us to play with the kids in the neighborhood. Gusto niya, laging nakasubsob yung mga ilong namin sa libro.

Di naglaon...we grew up into...well..let's just say shy people. Hmmm...may mali dun...I'm not really shy....more of reserved...pag di ko kakilala yung tao...I would not bother being friendly...tipong ganun. Ano nga ba yun in simple terms? Snob? Hmmm...maybe.

Kaya I did not bother to ask Friend kung sino sa mga kapitbahay ko ang napakasalan niya. Any name she'd mention will just be meaningless to me. Anyway.....

Friend: Diba nung highschool tayo...naging kayo ni Ali? Kayo parin ba ngayun?

Blogger: Er...di naman kami naging official na kami.

Friend: Ahh...talaga? Well..what happened? You guys looked good together.

Blogger: (napaisip) Well...kami'y magkaibigan pa rin.

Friend: Pero diba you guys were inlove with each other? Ano nangyari dun?

Blogger: (Nyak? Huh? WTF!!? How the hell does she know so much?!! Ni hindi nga kami close ng girl na toh?!!!) Uhm...hehehe...it was not meant to be lang siguro.

Di na siya nagtanong tungkol kay Ali. Napunta ang usapan sa mga "scandal" at tsismis na lumabas nung mga HighSchool Days namin. Naungkat din ang mga pangalan ng mga batch mates na parang di makabasag pinggan noon...na naunahan pa kaming magka-anak ngayun...

Nang makarating na ako sa bahay...the subject about Ali won't leave my mind. Packsyet...napaniginipan ko pa nga eh...hayzzz.

And after the dreams, the floodgates opened and memories came rushing back.

1st Year HS - Magnolia Classroom

Nakikita at nakakasabay ko na siya sa jeep noon. He was always with a girl...whom I thought was his neighbor and probably his girlfriend. On the 1st day my high school life, I saw him again sa loob ng Magnolia Classroom

He was not interesting...he was just a familiar face.

Kaklase ko rin ang isa pang familiar face nung grade school... siyempre...dahil 1st day...scared - as in...uber insecure... I needed someone to atleast talk to pag break time...kaya naman tinabihan ko si Candice, my grade school aquaintance. And Ali was seated on the row right infront of us.

Nung pumasok na yung adviser ng class, she immediately advised that there will be some sort of seating arrangement. "This is to make sure that you freshmen people will make new friends and not just stick to your elementary friends..." -

yun yung sabi ni Miss Adviser.

CRAP.

Hindi ko nagustuhan ang idea. I was already too unsure and my anxiety level was already too high. Suddenly, being separated from Candice was unthinkable! And to think na halos rare yung mga moments na nag-usap kami during our 6 year elementary days!

Pero siyempre, the seat plan was followed. And Ali ended up as my seatmate. The Adviser's strategy was to arrange us in alphabetical order...his family name was Hernandez...we were the only kids in class with family names starting in "H".

When we were all arranged like dutiful little puppets...I decided na I wanted him to be my friend. Mabilis kasing umikot yung wheels sa utak ko. The second that I figured out that we'd be seated together for the whole school year.. I've already considered na dahil nakatira siya sa neighborhood..he can be my companion pauwi. Scared kasi ako tumawid sa kalsada mag-isa. With him by my side... well..and him being a guy...he can always take the side where the vehicles would be coming from... hehehe...selfish...I know.

Blogger: (Siyempre...di pa ako blogger nun...) Ano ulit pangalan mo?

Ali: Alejandro...pero Dre tawag nila sa akin sa bahay.

Blogger: Alejandro? (makes a face) Masyadong mahaba. San naman galing yung Dre?

Ali: Ewan ko.

Blogger: Tawagin nalang kitang Ali. Ang haba ng name mo eh.

And that started it all. Me christening him with a shorter name. Nung una...ayaw niya...I think it sounded wrong for him. Pero I'm hard headed. I kept calling him Ali until everyone in our batch came to know him as Ali as well.

He was smaller than me back then. 4'11" compared to my superior 5 feet height (ahahaha...yeah...I looked tall once...a long long time ago). He was also payatot...and I was chubby. He always teased me about it.

We became inseperable. We'd usually walk to our paradahan with his cousin (ito yung girl na lagi niyang kasama sa jeep nuon) and some other classmates. Pero we'd usually be walking side by side...me asking him never ending questions about his life.

Ilan kayong magkakapatid?... Ha? ...Andami naman!

San ka nag-elementary? ...Ahhh...duon pala...er...san yun?

Sinong crush mo sa classroom?...Nge..wala? Ako si Jed (giggle,giggle)

I felt soooo comfortable around him. We can talk about anything. After 3 months or so...we'd go home together hand in hand. Ala pang malisya nuon. Takot nga kasi akong tumawid sa daan...and I'd usually hold on to his arm pag tatawid na...until eventually...kahit di na tumatawid...hawak kamay pa rin.

We became the best of friends.

The 3 month long na tampuhan.

Er...I'm sleepy next time na ulit. Ho-hum (yawn, yawn).

PART II

For my Superman..Happy Birthday mahal ko!!!

2008-10-25T00:01:00.001+08:00

Iris Goo Goo DollsAnd I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now Verse 2 And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight Chorus And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am Verse 3 And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything seems like the movies Yeah you bleed just to know your alive Chorus And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am Chorus I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am

CITADEL PARTY

2008-10-24T23:55:00.002+08:00

NEW DEVELOPMENTS

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN....LET'S HAVE THE PARTY ON NOVEMBER 1, 2008. MAY APPROVAL NA NI OM...

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

2008-10-22T03:23:00.001+08:00

Habang inaantay kong magreply sa YM ang pinakamamahal kong nobyo na uber busy...na walang panahon para maghelo man lang sa YM...na parang ikababawas sa kanyang pagkatao ang magreply!!!! (issssh!!!............ooops...nag-rant? Waheheheh...tsk...sorry...balik tayo sa orihinal na usapan).

So, hayun na nga...habang nag-aantay ako ng reply ay nagawi ako sa isang site na puro mga "ghosts" at mga "hauntings" and thema. Siyempre, dahil trip ko ring tinatakot ang sarili ko...

1:02 AM

THE SEA VIEW HOSPITAL...dating ospital ng mga may sakit na TB. Naging rehabilitasyon din ito ng mga baliw. Nasa New York ang ospital na to. Pinatayo nung 1913 dahil na rin sa TB outbreak sa lungsod nung 1903.

Sa kasalukuyan, di na ito ginagamit...

Heto siya sa umaga:

Heto naman siya sa gabi:

Kita niyo ba ang lalakeng naka-straight jacket sa upper left window? Hindi? Click mo kasi yung picture para lumaki...kita mo na? Astig no? Permanent resident siya ng ospital. Malamang ay walang nag-claim sa kanya nung pasara na ang ospital. Nag-aatay parin siguro na may kapamilya siyang magmamalasakit na iuwi siya. Tsk.

2:26 AM
SAINT BOTOLPH'S CHURCH..isang simbahan na pinatayo bago pa man ipanganak ang lola't lolo ng lola't lolo ko. Nasa Englatera ang simbahang ito. Kung titignan...parang normal na simbahan lang. Maliit lang...simple...itinayo nung 11th century...uber old na...pero carry lang.

Heto naman ang loob ng simbahan:

Napansin niyo rin ba siya? Si manang...naki-eksena sa picture. Ang letratong ito ay kinuha ng isang Chris Brackley nung 1982. Sinasabing isa siya sa mga masugid na deboto ng simbahan...at hangang ngayun ay nagdadasal parin dun kahit na patay na siya...OMG...manang naman! Uber devotion na yan!

Maghahanap pa sana ako ng mga pics...pero...kinikilabutan na ngay ako. Gawin ko nalang ulit sa umaga. Para maliwanag.

Goodluck sa Wave 28

2008-10-21T14:07:00.001+08:00

Heto na talaga. True na talaga eto. Last, last week...pumayag ang mga bossing na i-extend ang Wave 28. Kung titignan kasi talaga ang mga iskor ng mga ahente sa scorecard...eh talagang bagsak sila.

Tiger Lily: What do you think is the reason why they are failing.
Blogger: Comms...comms..and...hmmm, did I mention comms? Ah, and yes, sometimes common sense...but I believe that they are getting used to the calls now. They sound better than their 1st week...that, I can assure. They still suck but they are not far from some of the agents that are on the floor right now.
Bossing: Are they ready for production?
Blogger: Nope. But they will survive. They have to.

At hayun na nga. so..matapos ang 1 week of extension...nandahil naman sa kaguluhan sa schedule ay inextend ulit sila ng isa pang linggo.

Blogger: Guys, you will have to report to me for one more week.
Cutie Pie: Yey!!! Coach, I like that...I'm suffering from seperation anxiety na kanina eh.
Blogger: Lord!
Compused: Oo nga Coach...ako din. It's good that we are extended. I don't want to go to production anymore.
Ranma 1/2: Coach, is there a way that we could stay here in OCP forever?
Blogger: Errrr....
Young Mind: Yes coach...I promise...there will be lesser escalations!
Blogger: Hasssows!! Don't promise things that you cannot keep!!!
Mother Theresa: Coz coach...we're afraid.
Blogger: Afraid of what? You guys were scared of me on the 1st week. You got over that. You'll do the same thing in production. DO IT OR DIE TRYING!

Kanina (October 19, 2008, 10:00 PM) nagkita-kita kami sa Mapulang Leon. At parang deja-vu na naman ang usapan.

Brick Wall: Coach, final na ba talaga? Wala na bang extension ulit?
Blogger: Ngak. Heto na naman tayo...hanu ba kayo? You have to get used to the idea already, people. There's no stopping the movement now.
Ranma 1/2: Coach...natatakot talaga ako promise...parang gusto ko ng magresign.
Blogger: Punyeta. Ngayun mo sasabihin yan? Eh para san pa lahat ng pinaghirapan mo? Ng pinaghirapan namin para sayo?
Ranma 1/2: Eh pano naman Coach, ang tawag ng mga future team mates ko sa coach namin eh Little Bitch. Parang papatayin naman niya ako.
Blogger: OMG. I told you before to expect the worst. But I never said to give up early on the battle. That's for quitters.
Compused: Eh coach...feeling din kasi namin they don't like us. Tapos sabi rin ng iba sa floor...Bitch din yung magiging coach namin.
Blogger: Errr...well...you don't expect them to be warm and fuzzy on the 1st few weeks. Kayo yung bago eh. You have to adjust to them. And one more thing...you did not apply here to win Mr. or Ms. Congeniality Award. You're here to work for yourselves and your family.

Haaayzzz. Kung ako rin lang ang masusunod...di ko na pakakawalan tong mga ahenteng ito. Kung pwede lang...I'll carry them over to production. Wala akong paki-alam kahit na puro baguhan silang lahat. Yun nga lang...kelan ba naging "what i want" ang propesyon ko? It has always been "what the boss wants...".

Kaya sa WAVE 28...goodluck sa mga bagong yugto ng buhay niyo.

CITADEL PARTY (2nd attempt)

2008-10-20T02:42:00.004+08:00

ANO NA MGA KAPAMILYA?

KELAN BA ANG MGA DAY-OFF NIYO JAN?

KELAN BA MATUTULOY ANG BONGGANG RE-UNION SA

BAHAY NILA OM CARL??

MAGPAPASKO NA NAMAN, HINDI PA NATIN

NAIPAGDIDIWANG ANG ARAW NG MGA BAYANI

NUNG AUGUST AT NGAYUN, PATI BA NAMAN

HALLOWEEN PALALAMPASIN NATIN?

Wallpaper for the day

2008-10-14T18:39:00.001+08:00

RF Online

Wallpaper for the day

2008-10-07T18:31:00.000+08:00

The Palace

Blast from the Past

2008-10-01T17:44:00.003+08:00

It all happened by chance. I've always wanted to know kung anong mararamdaman ko if I get to talk to him again. Will I be excited? Will I still feel or think na maybe I made the wrong decision when I agreed to break up with him?

During that fateful night, I felt like I was looking at myself from a distance, watching my own reaction, waiting...looking for any signs that will prove that I am still in love with him. But after two hours of talking, joking and reminiscing...

Blogger:(hindi alam kung anong demonyong nag-udyok para pumunta sa lugar na yun...tingin-tingin sa paligid. Hinahanap ang mga dapat ay pamilyar na mukha sa dagat ng mga estranghero).
Eric: Vidz! Buti nakarating ka!
Blogger: (yakap kay Eric) Hi!!! Heheh...sandali lang ako pwede.
Eric: Ano ka ba, ngayun na nga lang yung reunion eh!

Pumasok na kami...at dun na nagsimulang humiwalay ang aking sarili sa aking katawan nung nakita ko siya. Hindi siya nagbago...he looks so much like the boy that I met way back in the freshman days of our college years.

Ngumiti siya nang makita niya ako. Nginitian ko naman silang lahat. Hindi ko sinasadya...subalit tumabi ako kay Edward. Hindi dahil ayoko siyang tabihan, kundi dahil masyadong masikip pag sa tabi niya ako pumwesto.

Eric: O, bakit parang umiwas ka ata? Dapat tabi kayo ni Kel. Edward, dito ka nga sa tabi ko!
Blogger: Hanu bazz...
Kel: Vidz, ano sayo? Red Horse? Light?
Blogger: (Ha? Mukha na ba akong sunog-baga?) Er...no, I can't drink.
Kel: KJ naman oh...
Edward: Tignan mo si Eric o, umiinom na rin.
Roemon: Oo nga...kahit minsan lang.
Blogger: Hindi talaga pwede. Mag Shirly Temple nalang ako...
Kel: Naks! So sossy naman.
Blogger: Di naman...
Eric: Oo nga eh...may bangs bangs ka na rin ngayun.
Kel: Mukha ngang pati buhok naka-rebond na rin eh.
Roemon: Pati pag-upo, naka cross legs. Sosyal na sosyal na!
Blogger: Mga packsyet kayo! Pinapunta niyo ba ako rito para asarin?

And from then...ok na. Sa loob loob ko I finally realized that after 3 long years, I have proven na wala na nga talaga. Dati kasi, theory lang yun...yung tipong, you say: "Ofcourse I'm over him already...haler...that's like so 10 years ago noh..."
Pero iba pa rin talaga pag nagkaharap kayo at nagkausap ulit...
What remained now is just the friendship. And I thank God that we were able to save that.

I'm glad I decided to join them that night...because the one ghost that has been haunting me since I fell in love with Glen...has finally been laid to rest.

Wallpaper for the day

2008-09-30T18:19:00.000+08:00

The Tormented Princess

Face the Truth...

2008-09-29T10:25:00.015+08:00

My life is brilliant.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Blogger: (nagugutom...malapit nang matapos ang shift subalit ngayun palang magbe-break...lumabas sa may starbucks 2..narinig ang malungkot na kanta...) Tsk..kain nga ako...para marinig ko yung buong kanta. (bumili ng chicken mami)

(habang nag-aantay...natanaw sina MAFO at Phantom na nag-uusap sa may mga upuan sa may harap ng girl's quarters)

Blogger: Naks! Ano kayang pinag-uusapan nila? (dali-daling kinuha ang chicken mami at pasimpleng lumapitsa dalawa. Naghanap ng upuan para tamang-tama ang view sa dalawa...para may pinapanood na teleserye habang may mainit na maming kinakain) (subalit bago makaupo ay tumayo si MAFO at pumasok na sa opisina)

Blogger: (upo sa tabi ni Phantom) O, problem nun?
Phantom: (kibit balikat) I just told him na pumasok na siya. Kawawa naman agents niya...walang support.
Blogger: Ahhh...ok. So, musta naman ang "friendship" niyo? (snicker, snicker)
Phantom: It's ok. We are friends.
Blogger: I see.. (kain ng mami...chalap-chalap...) Will you not consider his suit? (subo ulit ng mami...hay heaven...ng biglang...EEEWW! Ang pait ng buto ng kalamansi! Blech!!!)

Phantom: There's is nothing to consider. He is not courting.
Blogger: Really? Could've fooled me. (ini-inspeksyon ang mami...baka may mga nagtatago pang buto ng kalamansi...nag-aantay para makain at masira ang appetite ko)

Blogger: Eh anong gagawin mo pag nanligaw siya?
Phantom: Nothing.
Blogger: Why not? I mean...don't you find him mentally stimulating? He's not afraid to speak his mind. He has no fear of rules...he breaks them for the shear (ay..sheer gayam --- sorry, tao lang) pleasure of just breaking them. He's also not afraid to let the whole damned office know of his feelings for you. He also calls you even if both of you are in the office. He even texts you like there's no tomorrow!

Phantom: Yeah...he's all that.
Blogger: So what are you waiting for? You can make this friendship become something more if you want to.
Phantom: I think he would not like that. He's afraid that the ideal girl in his head would crumble once the faults would surface...besides...the friendship could be nothing more than a platonic relationship.

Blogger: Oh, yeah...'coz you've already found your Superman?
Phantom: Exactly. (sigh) I fear that with all my Superman's faults, with everything that he is not and everything that he is ...no matter who comes along...no matter how perfect that someone is for me...I would still choose to stay by my Superman's side.

Blogger: (sweatdrop) Lord...you're reading too many sappy novels. Mag chicken mami nalang tayo.

D' ENCOUNTER

2008-09-28T22:03:00.004+08:00

Napadaan ako isang araw sa may teritoryo ng Kapamilya Network. Hindi ko mapigilang isipin kung ano kayang ginagawa ko na ngayun pag ako'y Kapamilya parin.

Nakita kong maraming mukha na ang bago...ano na nga bang wave ngayun? Wave 100? Packsyet...last na hinawakan kong Nesting wave eh Wave 80.

Nakakamiss...

Pabalik na sana ako sa bakod na aking kinabibilangan ng biglang maharang ang aking dinaraanan...

Alien: Coach! Ang tagal na kitang di nakikita ah.

Blogger: Honga...musta ang Kapamilya network?

Alien: Hayun...sobrang stress. Kala mo wala ng bukas pag nag-co-calls kami. Lagi nalang suspended ang breaks! Tapos, pag magpapabreak sila...isa-isa lang daw. Eh tapos na yung siyam na oras na shift namin...di pa nakakabreak ang lahat! Anong klase naman daw yan?

Blogger: Ahahaha...asteeeg. Carry lang yan. Sabi nga nila...only the toughest survive.

Alien: Coach, anu bago sayo ngayun?

Blogger: Errr...

Alien: Nabalitaan mo na ba na nakitang nag-gro-grocery si Lola Churva at si Lolo Chenelin na magkasama sa SM?

Blogger: Talaga? (napaisip) Baka naman may party lang sila...normal lang yun.

Alien: Sus! Kailangan pa bang magholding hands?

Blogger: Nyah???

Alien: Nakarating rin ba sa inyo jan sa kabilang bakod yung tungkol kay Miss Chukchak?

Blogger: Ha? Bakit?

Alien: TSK! Wala ng makakatalo sa kahabaan ng hair niya!

Blogger: Talaga? Bakit naman? Nakaka-suspense ka naman eh.

Alien: Hay Lord! Eh pano, ang tatlong muskitero ay nahuhumaling daw sa kagandahan niya! Tsk! Mahilig talaga sila sa exotic.

Blogger: Uy, gagu...bad yan.

Alien: Ikaw kasi coach eh...lilipat-lipat ka...nahuhuli ka na tuloy sa mga maiinit na balita.

Blogger: Ahahahah.... i-update mo nalang ako every now and then. Mukhang kahit sang account naman ako mapunta eh meron ka namang magsasabi sa akin ng mga pangyayari.

Alien: Tsk! Ako pah!

Mr. Afraid to be Figured Out

2008-09-26T02:38:00.011+08:00

Blogger: (nagbabasa ng email...delete: "i love hairy men"; delete: "I'm too sexy for my bodeh...") Packsyet.Kaya laging "inbox is full" ako eh.

Mr. Afraid to be Figured Out: (biglang sumulpot) Hey, check it out... (masyadong mahaba ang code name...MAFO for short nalang...kakatamad mag type eh)

Blogger: Check out what?

MAFO: It's the new girl...

Blogger: Hmmm? (sabay tingin sa entrance...) So?

MAFO: Ala lang...intriguing.

Blogger: (kibit balikat) She does not strike me as "special".

MAFO: Pero look at her...she looks...lost.

Blogger: Normal lang yun. Bagong salta eh. In time, she'll show her horns.

(Pagkalipas ng ilang araw...)

MAFO: Nakausap ko na siya.

Blogger: (nagdedelete na naman ng mga sensible emails...isssh!)

MAFO: Oi! Narinig mo ba ako...makinig ka! Tama na yan...pretending to be busy ka na naman eh.

Blogger: (buntong hininga) Nakikinig ako. So, anong pinag-usapan niyo?

MAFO: La lang. Nothing in particular...pero feeling ko, smart siya. Tapos asteeeg ng ngiti niya. I think her smile even stopped me on my tracks a while ago...

Blogger: (taas ng kilay) Do I smell rampaging hormones?

MAFO: (sumingkit ang mga mata) Ganyan ka ba talaga? Tsk-tsk. You're really jaded already.

Blogger: (kibit balikat...sabay balik sa pagbabasa ng mga emails....delete: "Anyone seen my headset? This is the code number...."....delete: "Clinic Food Fair"....delete: "These are the following incentives for July..." --- OOPS, wait lang...incentives yun ah...masilip nga...baka andun ang pangalan ko)

(Pagkalipas ng isang buwan...)

MAFO: Nakakatuwa siya! Ang weird niyang tao.

Blogger: Weird? Meaning?

MAFO: Meaning she's not the usual empty head. Smart siya. Tapos she also has a unique sense of humor. Tapos ang charming pa niya! O diba? Ang cool!

Blogger: (subo ng toknene) OMG...you're inlove?

MAFO: (kunyari shocked ang expression ng mukha) Ano bang pinagsasabi mo jan? I'm merely admiring her qualities.

Blogger: (kunyari naniniwala sa sinasabi ng kausap) Ahhhh...ok. (subo ng toknene) Sige, whatever you say, dude.

MAFO: Pero it's really amusing...to think na magkaharap pa stations namin. Minsan nakakadistract.

Blogger: (blink) (blink)

(Pagkalipas ng isa pang buwan...)

MAFO: Nakakainis siya! She's so manhed!!! As in hardcore manhed!!!

Blogger: (gumagawa ng SKEP...naks...) Ha? Who?

MAFO: Halerrr!! As if naman...sino pa ba? Eh di si Phantom.

Blogger: Ba't naman siya naging manhid?

MAFO: I'm practically worshipping the ground she walks on.

Blogger: (natigil sandali sa pagtype) Dude, that's sounded so gay.

MAFO: I literally look at her with stars in my eyes!

Blogger: (hinga ng malalim...pinipigilan ang pagtawa para di naman ma-hurt ang kaibigan)

MAFO: Her agents and even my agents are even hinting that I like her pero walang epek sa kanya!!

Blogger: Pare, may syota ka...may nobyo din siya. How would you want her to react? Fall for your charms and cheat on her boyfriend like what your ex did to you?

MAFO: That line of thought is way tooooo advanced from what I have in mind. And...that comment is uncalled for.

Blogger: Sus...baka naman ngayung final na ang decision ni Strawberry Jam na magpakasal kay Chocolate Bread...eh naghahanap ka lang ng mapagbabalingan ng thwarted love mo?

MAFO: Hay Lord...help me...no one understands.

(Ngayung buwan na ito...)

MAFO: (panicked look) Alam na niya...God! She knows that she's the Phantom in my life!

Blogger: Hmmm...well, hindi na yan nakakapagtaka. To think na halos buong Kapuso network ang nakakaalam...she's bound to hear it sooner or later.

MAFO: Anung gagawin ko?

Blogger: Is she creeped out?

MAFO: I dunno...maybe.

Blogger: Is she still talking to you?

MAFO: Uhhh...yeah.

Blogger: Eh di hayaan mo na. Atleast she's mature enough na not make a big deal out of it.

MAFO: It's a big deal to me! It felt so awkward!

Blogger: Uhuh...yes well....live with it.

Wallpaper for the day

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THE THIEF

Phantom - her side of the story

2008-09-26T02:09:00.001+08:00

Phantom: Sino yun?
Blogger: (heto ulit...nagbabasa ng email) Alin?
Phantom: Yung maingay...yung ang lakas lakas magtagalog...eh naturingang EOP ang office.
Blogger: (tingin sa may bandang MOD) Ahhh...si MAFO yun.
Phantom: MAFO?
Blogger: Uu...ganyan talaga yan. Feeling above the rules.
Phantom: Ganun?
Blogger: Yep.

(After ilang araw...)

Blogger: (nasa akmang pagsubo ng pancit ng biglang...)
Phantom: Aaarrrrgh!!! Nakakainis! Ang asshole ng customer! Ganito ba talaga mga customers dito? Haaayzzz. Para sa isang dolyar lang nagsisigaw na? Packsyet!
Blogger: (ibinaba ang tinidor...sabay protesta naman ang tiyan: "Huuuuwaaaaagg....ang panciiiiit....huhuhuhuh") Oo ganun talaga. Masanay ka na.
Phantom: Haaay...may callback pa ako para kay OM.
Blogger: (takam na takam nang kainin ang pancit...subalit ayaw ng istorbo sa pagsubo kaya pilit tinutuon ang pansin sa kausap) Tier 3 escalation? Bigay mo kay MAFO. Expert yun sa mga asshole customers.
Phantom: Really? Ahahaha...well, I think it would make sense. Only an ass could understand another ass.
Blogger: Tumpak ka diyan.
Phantom: Pero nakakahiya naman sa kanya. May sarili din siyang escalations.
Blogger: Sus! As if naman...eh ngitian mo nga lang yun eh pumapayag na siya sa kung anu man ang sabihin mo. Ok lang yun!
Phantom: Nge? Ganun ba talaga yun kabait?
Blogger: Errrr....
Phantom: Baka naman may ibang meaning yung kabaitan niya. It's just weird.
Blogger: (kunyari busy na sinusuri ang mga kuko) Imahinasyon mo lang yun.
Phantom: Siguro nga...and besides...I heard na he's head over heels Strawberry Jam.
Blogger: Yeah.

(Pagkalipas ng isang buwan....)

Phantom: He's really weird.
Blogger: (parang deja vu...) Weird? Meaning?
Phantom: Well...alam mo yung tipong hindi siya usual male. Mahilig siyang magbasa ng books. Tapos he is somewhat in touch with his eccentric side. Yung tipong...you know...he talks about stuff na only girls would often think of.
Blogger: Nyah??!? What are you saying? You think he's gay?
Phantom: Di naman. Tipong pwede mo siyang kausapin tungkol sa mga theories... psychology crap and all.
Blogger: Ahhhh...oo...weird nga.

(Pagkalipas ng isa pang buwan...)

Blogger: Wala ka bang napapansin kay MAFO?
Phantom: Like? Ano naman?
Blogger: He acts weird around you.
Phantom: Di ba nga...we've already establish that fact.
Blogger: Feeling ko gusto ka niya.
Phantom: (humigop ng kape...) (sabay tawa) Yeah right!
Blogger: You don't think so?
Phantom: LORD! No I don't think so...at the least...he's just amused and intrigued with me kasi I'm the new guy here.
Blogger: Ahhh...ok. Kung sabagay, may point ka.

(ngayung buwan na ito....)

Phantom: He likes me!??
Blogger: (no comment)
Phantom: Pano naman daw yun?
Blogger: Errrr...
Phantom: Maybe he just thinks he likes me...
Blogger: Well...
Phantom: Hayzzz...or maybe this is just one of his jokes. Siguro may pustahan sila nila T-Rex at Red Sky.
Blogger: Pwede rin naman.
Phantom: Mga packsyet sila. Ako pang nagawang pagtripan.
Blogger: Uuhhmm....
Phantom: May kinalaman ka ba dito? Did you know about this?
Blogger: Huh??! Ako??! Di ah! Wala akong kaalam-alam juan. Di nga kami nag-uusap eh...

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SI Tabby...

2008-09-10T15:22:00.001+08:00

Ang bunso ng pamilya...si Tabby.

Siya'y inampon namin nung mga bandang July.

Naalala ko pa nung gabing yun...lahat kaming magkakapatid (Ako, si Jun, si Roan at ang pinsan naming si Girly) ay nasa labas ng bahay. Nag-aantay sa isa pa naming kapatid na ni si Siera...

Nasa kanya kasi ang susi...para tuloy kaming mga kawawa sa labas, nakasimangot at nayayamot nang nag-aantay.

Nang mga sandaling iyon...bigla akong may narining na umiiyak...

Blogger: Jun, narinig mo yun? Ano yun?

Jun: Wala...baka may naglalaro lang.

Roan: Bakit? Ano ba yun?

Blogger: Ewan ko ba...parang may umiiyak na bata...

Girly: (tahimik lang)

Jun: Wala...anyakamet...nag-i-imagine ka na naman.

Maya-maya'y umakyat mula sa ibabang palapag ang magkapatid na si Dan at Tyrone. May hawak hawak silang handbag. Iwinawasiwas ni Dan ang hand bag na parang salagubang sa ere. At dahil sa mejo maliit si Dan, nawala siya sa balanse at napaupo siya sa semento. Kasabay nito'y nahagis ang hand bag sa may paanan ko...

Muli kong narinig ang parang umiiyak na bata...

Blogger: O, Dan...ano toh? (Sabay nudge sa handbag gamit ang toe ko - kumaluskos ang bag...)

Napatalon ako sa gulat...akala ko'y daga...haler, kadiri kaya ang makagat ng house rat noh...eeeew!

Ngunit nang makita na talaga namin ang nasa loob...

At hayun na nga...duon na nagsimula ang talambuhay ng aming kuting na si Tabby. Bininyagan namin siyang tabby dahil napulot namin siya sa tabi-tabi.

Si Tabby...ang bunso ng aming pamilya.

No More, It Cannot wait, I'm Yours....

2008-09-10T06:03:00.001+08:00

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

well you done done me and you bet i felt it
i tried to get you but you're so hot that i melted
i fell right through the cracks
and i'm trying to get back
before the cool done run out
i'll be giving it my bestest
nothin's going to stop me but devine intervention
i reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

i won't hesitate no more
no more it cannot wait, i'm yours

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
ah la peaceful melody
its your godforsaken right to be loved love loved love love

so i won't hesitate no more
no more it cannot wait i'm sure
theres no need to complicate
our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

i been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
and bendin over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
so i drew a new face and laughed
i guess what i'm sayin is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
its what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

i won't hesitate no more
no more it cannot wait i'm sure
theres no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours

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Nananadya Ka Ba?

2008-09-08T08:20:00.003+08:00

Blogger: Punyetah! Kanina ka pa ah...
Fate: Well...kasalanan mo rin naman eh...kaya magdusa ka.
Blogger: Packsyet...quality control lang yung ginawa ko. It was getting out of hand. Gantihan na yung nangyayari...
Fate: Quality Control? Ano bang justification yan? You know that you both fix things by talking it out. This is not helping.
Blogger: Dati yun. That's not gonna work this time. Gusto ko lang ng peace of mind.
Fate: Ah ganun?

Biglang may nag-request sa I-FM...someone named Buddy...yung song daw na Cool Off by Session Road...

Hindi siya familiar...pero when the lyrics started:

ayoko na munang makita ka..
ayoko na munang makasama ka..
gusto ko sanang mapag-isa..
'di na yata tayo masaya..
'di na yata kakayanin pa..
gusto ko munang mapag-isa..

siguro'y ito na nga..
intindihin mo na..
kailangan lang natin ng pahinga..

palayain ang isa't isa..
kung tayo, tayo talaga..
palayain ang isa't isa..
kung tayo, tayo talaga..

http://www.tristancafe.com/music/flash/cooloff.html

Blogger: Packsyet naman!!! Nananadya ka talaga!!!
Fate: Face it...you're being a coward. Ayaw mong aminin na this is really your fault.
Blogger: My fault? Eh packsyet...halos tumambling na nga ako dahil parang sa kanya na umiikot mundo ko eh! God knows I tried....
Fate: Are you giving up?
Blogger: I don't know....that's why I need time to think...so stop messing with my mind.
Fate: Tsk...tsk..tsk. Cge..para makapag-isip ka lalo...

Muling nagsalita ang DJ...nagpasalamat sa mga taga-Camp Allen sa kanilang patuloy na pagsuporta sa estasyon...tapos heto ang isinunod na pinatugtog:

The Past - Jed Madela

I was wrong when I hurt you
But did you have to hurt me too
Did you think revenge will make it better?
I don`t care about the past
I just want our love to last
There`s a way to bring us back together

Chorus:
I must forgive you
You must forgive me too
If we wanna try to put things back
the way they used to be
`Cause there`s no sense in going over and over
The same things as before
So let`s not bring the past up anymore

Out of all the good we had
You only keep track of the bad
Though you knew I never really loved her
Didn`t anyone tell you yet
That to forgive is to forget
How can you be mad if you don`t remember

Repeat Chorus:

I must forgive you
And you must forgive me too
It`s the only thing that`s left
that we haven`t try to do
One thing that I`m sure will work
That we haven`t tried before
Let`s not bring the past back anymore

Blogger: Syeeet!! Stop it!
Fate: Well...the song has sense. Why don't you listen to it?
Blogger: Hayzzz...Ushangnana...

Tumayo ako at pinatay ko ang radyo...PACKSYET!

Silip sa Mundo ni Adan

2008-09-06T18:57:00.006+08:00

Hayun na...mega over to the max and to the highest level ang adventure na ito!!! Hindi ko alam kung papano ako magsisimula...

Sabihin na natin na ang lahat ay nagsimula sa sama ng loob...

July 30, 2008

Isa itong araw na dapat sana'y makahulugan. Yung tipong...make plans...mga trip to the beach siguro...na tipong kayo lang. Yung as in uber kilig moments ba - kasi nga..it's July 30, 2008. Pero hindi eh. Ang araw na yun ay naging araw ng pagiging isang official na saling pusa.

Pero sige...naisip ng inyong lingkod na siguro'y ito na ang magiging pinaka-magandang regalo ko para sa araw na ito. Maging cooperative...maging maintindihin. Wag ko nalang iisipin na mas mamarapatin niya na makipagkasiyahan at makipag-inuman kasama ng mga taong nagbibigay kahulugan sa kanyang buhay ngayun.

Pilit kong inintindi. Kahit na halos kumulot na ang buhok ko (sa ulo)...pilit kong inintindi.

August 31, 2008

Ang araw na ito...tulad ng iyong natunghayan sa nakaraang sulatin...ay nakalaan sana para sa paglalakbay patungong Aringay, La Union. Subalit ito'y hindi natuloy. Marahil ay ang tadhana na rin ang gumawa ng paraan...para ito'y di matuloy. Subalit di ko mapigilang ma-frustrate!! As IN!!! Packsyet!

Kaya naman ay nang magkayayaan sa Mapulang Leon ay di ako tumanggi! Go na go ako!

At nang kami'y magtipon-tipon sa may lamesa sa labas...na katabi namin ang sangkaterbang Koryano na wala ng ginawa kundi magtoast....

Miss Erotica: Coach! Puro ka nalang Cali! Ang daya mo! Uminom ka naman!

Blogger: (kamot sa ulo) Ha? Ah..eh..later nalang..mejo ginugutom uli ako eh. (lingon-lingon sa paligid...animo'y naghahanap ng waiter) Miss, dalawang fries nga po... (saba'y bulong sa sarili: Pwede yung galing Mcdo?)

Waiter: Ano ho?

Blogger: Dalawang fries po...

Maya-maya'y nagkakuwentuhan na kami tungkol sa mga tao sa opisina. Juice koh! Itong si Miss Small But Teribol ...A.K.A: MSBT...ang dami niyang alam na chismaks!! OMG!!!

MSBT: Coach, bat di ko na nakikita si Miss Preggy?

Blogger: Nakikita ko pa naman...pero tuwing mga oras na pa-log-out na ang lahat. Asteeg nga ng schedule niya eh...parang 2 hours everyday lang. Damn! Dapat talaga mabuntis na ako para may ganung eksena na rin ako!

MSBT: Oo nga...hehehe...Coach, di mo bagay magbuntis! (lagok ng red horse) ..akala ko nag-resign na siya...o di kaya nanganak na. Kasi nung nabuntis siya nung guy sa Convergys umalis siya dun eh.

Blogger: Ba't naman siya magre-resign? Sayang ang Maxicare!

MSBT: Eh kasi yung guy nasa Sitel din...yung Coach sa RPN...si Jet Li.

Blogger: Jet Li? Yung galing Bellsouth?

MSBT: Yep. Ex nga din ni Jet Li si Nora Aunor eh.

Blogger: Nyahhh??? Talaga? Asteeeg. I never thought na ganun kalakas ang appeal ni Jet Li.

Nang dumating ang French Fries...

Talulot: Coach, si Coach Milo...di kasama?

Blogger: (silip sa cellphone) Di na raw eh...may shift kaya yun.

Miss Braces: Sus! Sabi niya mag-aabsent siya para sumama sa resort ngayun!

Talulot: Naks naman Coach! Talagang ang lakas ng tama niya sayo ah!

Blogger: Ngek. Ganun lang yun. Hayaan niyo na (tsk...wait lang...yung hair ko, naaapakan na nung waiter yung hair ko sa sobrang haba!)

Nang maka-order na ng 3rd round ang mga kasama ko....

Blogger: Uwian na after neto... (hikab-hikab kunwari...hangang 10 lang pinaalama ko sa Inay ko!)

MSBT: Wag naman Coach! Bar hopping nalang tayo!

Blogger: DEAD! Kulang ang pera natin!

Miss Erotica: Punta tayo sa may nagsasayaw!

MSBT: Ahahaha...gusto niyo sa gay bar? Sunday ngayun! Siguradong may special night sila! (imagine mo ito...anime na kumikinang ang mata...yun yung hitsura niya nung sinabi niya yaon!)

Miss Erotica: Sige!!! Tara!!!

Talulot: Oh God! Wag na ako!

Blogger: Hala! Hindi pa ako nakakapasok sa mga ganun!

Miss Erotica: Ako rin Coach!

Miss Braces: Ako nakapasok na ako sa bar na gilrs naman ang nagsasayaw...ahahahha...

MSBT: Ay pag sa strip club ng girls kasi...may entrance fee na 300 per girl!

Blogger: OMG!!! Expertise ba ito??!!!

Pagkalipas ng ilang minuto...

Taxi driver: San po tayo?

Walang gustong magsalita... nagtinginan ang lahat...at biglang nagtawanan

MSBT: Kuya, sa Cloud 7 po...sa may Nagoya Inn...

Madilim sa loob...kami palang ang customer. Juice koh...mahabaging langit... pakiramdam ko'y pumasok ako sa kuweba ng mga leon...O-M-G!

Pagkababa palang ng taxi ay nakakita na si Miss Erotica ng "tipo" niyang lalake. In-fairness... mga guwapo ang karamihan sa kanila. ASTEEEG!

Ang kanilang pagsasayaw ay hindi katulad ng aking mga napapanood sa telebisyon. At ang mga pes....gravah!!! May mga pes value talaga!!!

Talulot: Coach, alam mo yung naka-cap ng red? Kuya yan ng barkada ko. Syet!

Blogger: Hayna! Huwag mo nang pansinin.

Nung unang pasok namin..mejo tahimik pa eh...tapos biglang bumulahaw sa ere ang tugtog ng Boys II Men: "I'm Down on Bended Knees" Wahahahahah!!!!

Asteeeeg! Akala siguro nila'y mga bading kami na naghahanap ng aliw...LORD!!!

At hayun na nga...nag-umpisa na silang magsasa-sayaw. Salitan sila sa stage. Nung una...may mga jacket at jeans pa. Hayna! Pulang-pula ako. Buti nalang madilim. Nahihiya kasi akong tumungin sa kanila. Dinadaan nalang namin sa tawa...para hindi halata na baguhan kami sa mga lugar na ganito.

Pero LORD! Hayun na nga!!! Maya-maya'y wala na ang jakelya...at ang jeans...at ang T-shirt! Nakakapawis!!! O-M-G to the highest level!!!

Take note...hindi kami...na-ho-horny sa kanila. It was more on...alam mo yun... tipong kami yung nahihiya for them...hayzzz! Haggard!!!

So nung naka boxer shorts nalang sila...na may mga shawl , shwal pang nalalaman kunwari...na pinapasok nila duoon...tapos saka isusubo sa mouth nila... YYYYUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKK!!! Ahahahahaahha.

Tapos si Totoy...juice ko...napakamura pa ng kanyang mga kalamnan. OMG! Para siyang 16 year old na nagsasa-sayaw duon! Huwaaaaah!!! Tapos nung matapos siyang sumayaw ay naki-table siya sa isang BADINGER-Z!!! JJJJUIIICEEE KOOOH!!!

At heto na ang ultimate exposure. Sabi nga ni manong bouncer dun sa isa naming kasama..wala daw mag-o-all the way...so..o di cge.

Pero itong isang dancer...lapit kasi ng lapit sa table namin...eh siyempre..afraid kami noh! Haler!! Eh di mega tili kami...tapos...LORD! Na-challenge ata...at biglang hinablot niya ang kakarampot niyang saplot sa ibaba...tumuntong siya sa aming table at biglang pinag babandera ang kanyang "family jewels" sa harap namin. GRAVAAAAHHH!!! Nakakadiriiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaahh!! Ang lapit pa nung "churva" sa amin.....YUUUUUCCCK!!!

Sobra!! As in...LORD! Nagsi-sigaw ako sa takot...pati si Miss Erotica na uber tapang...napa sigaw at napatago sa jacket ko!!!

At nang umalis na si feeling gwapong dancer...

Miss Braces: Coach!! Baket ka nagtakip?!!? Di mo tuloy nakita yung mga patatas na parang di nahugasan.

MSBT: Hindi yun patatas! Mga kamote yun!!!

ANG NAKARAAN....

2008-08-31T06:43:00.007+08:00

Anu na ngayun? Sunday na naman...lumipas na ang aking bertday...pati bertday ni Roel at ni Cha...pero ...ba't wala pa ring nagpapainom?
Nyahahaha...sabi ni OM Carl..ngayung gabi daw ang reunion...subalit to be re-scheduled ulit sabi naman ng iba...
TSK...

Medjo matagal din bago ako huling pasukin ang aking blogsite... hayzzz... uber busy to the max! LORD!

Hayun na nga ....ang mga nakaraang pangyayari...

August something...basta, earlier last week:
Number 1 ang team namin...asteeeg...halos 2 weeks na kaming nandun. I was happy pero in a way...I know that it's not gonna last. The team is shaky..hindi pa ayos ang maraming bagay. Marami pang work ang kailangang gawin.

August 25:
Kelangan ko itong ilagay sa aking blog...si Collin Farell ay nakita ko na sa totoong buhay!! Juice koh!! Habang ako'y uber sub-sob sa work at mega practice ako ng aking typing skills sa computer ay bigla kong natanaw ang isa sa mga bisita ng AT&T...nagstop ang aking pag-ta-type...napatayo pa ako sa aking upuan...at napasunod sa pantry...nag-excuse na bumili ng macaroons kay Ate Janet ----all that, para lang matanaw ang mukha ni Collin Farell look alike!!! LORD!

August 26:
Umugong na ang bali-balita na may mga coaches in danger sa amin. Nyahahah...so..parang AT&T rin pala. Sabi ng iba..bang 5 time Bingo slammers na daw yung iba kaya sobrang init na sa mata ng management.

August 27:
Ang team ay bumagsak sa number 2...nalungkot ang mga ahente...pero sabi ko sa kanila...staying on the top is not a goddamned priveledge. It means you've worked hard that you deserve to be there...and when you go down...it does not mean that you're not good enough to stay there...it just means you have not given your all to stay on the spot.

August 28:
One day before the actual "theme day"...ang sa amin ay Egyptian. Hay...haggard na haggard na ako. For the past few days...nagpupunta ako sa hospital for check-ups and stuff...and the sleep that I'm getting ranges from 3-4 hours lang. LORD! Hindi ako sanay! Kadalasan ay 8-10 hours itow!!!

August 29:
Ang theme day...lord!! 2 hours in the making ang payong!!! Buti nalang at ito ang nanalo! Juice koh! A for Ayffort talaga ito! Akalain mo ba naman...parang highschool life ulit ang feeling dahil mega creepe paper at mega metallic paper ang bahay habang ginagawa ang payong na ito!!! 500 pesos din yun!
Ngunit ang malungkot na parte ay bumgasak naman sa number 8 ang team!!! OMG!!! sabi na nga ba eh...hayzzz. ang tanging nagpapaangat sa amin ay ang CSAT...at ng pumasok na nga and CSAT ng mga hindi pa tenured...ay lord...mega tumbling na ang scores. Kami'y mga bituing nawalan na ng ning-ning.

August 30:
Paghahanda para sa outing sa Aringay, La Union. Pero --- di natuloy.

August 31:
Dahil sa naudlot na big time team building...nagkayayaan nalang na lumabas sa kinagabihan. Sayang naman. 1st time lang na lahat ng agents ay may common day off! Siguro ay kantahan at videoke galore na itow!

All in all...
Ang nakaraang linggo ay naging ....stressful. Ewan ko ba. Ish!

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2008-08-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

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2008-08-24T19:53:00.000+08:00

Ang Bagong Blog

2008-08-23T19:18:00.002+08:00

Nalaman ko ito nung isang araw lamang.... May blog daw ang mga ahente na kung saan ay nakalathala ang iba't ibang chismis sa center.

Sabi nga ng iba'y walang code name code name ito... Real name ang mga nakalagay... Assssteeeeg!!! Susyal!!! Ano bang link niyan? Penge naman...matagal na akong wala sa chismiss loop eh. Wakekekeke.

HAPI BERTDAY!!!

2008-08-23T19:05:00.002+08:00

COACH ROEL AT COACH CHA....HEYPI HEYPI BERTDAY!!!

May magpapainom bukas ng gabi...wakekekeke!!!

Kaya it has been decided...
sila ang sagot sa chicken, pancit at cake!!!

Yey!!!

Ang SHOT

2008-08-18T09:27:00.002+08:00

Dahil sa halos lahat tayo'y may day-off ng SAT, SUN...duun nalang yung ating SHOT.

Sabi ni OM Carl, sagot daw niya yung liquor...pero malamang...mga hard liquour yun...

Dapat may magcontribute ng beer...ROEL...ikaw na yun...maghati nalang kayo ng ibang mga support na lalake...

Mas marami dapat yung beer para di kayo madaling malasing.

Coach Kija...dapat may drink for girls...tapos dapat may Cali..para kina Janice at Edith...

Tapos yung fudams ngay? POTLUCK style naman eh...dapat may food na dalhin per person...

Ang ating target date ay sa AUG 23 or 24.

May nga aalis daw kasi papuntang Singapore sa last week ng August...kaya dapat sa 3rd week... ay magawa na natin ang HINUMAN...HIK!

Wait...magse-send ako ng email para may trail...

Si Miss Clueless

2008-08-18T08:37:00.007+08:00

Hindi ko siya talagang kilala... Marahil ay unfair ang judgement ko dahil hindi ko naman siya talagang nakakasalamuha. Pero naman!

Hayzzz...sa isang working environment, your work ...or the quality of your work would usually spell out the kind of person you are.

Kung laging "Ok na, pwede na" ang quality ng work mo...eh malamang, isa kang tao na wala talagang passion para ibigay ang lahat...yung tipong wala lang...pacute lang...kunyari magaling...pero nagmamagaling lang pala.

Meron din naman yung talagang "ok lang" ang resulta ng kani-kanilang gawain dahil yun lang ang kaya nilang gawin.

So.....saan kaya siya nabibilang?

Ish! Kasi naman! Kasi...kasi...kasi!

Lagi nalang, nung nasa Kapamilya pa ako...LORD! Sablay ang kanyang mga products! Parang 100% re-work ang ginagawa namin pag sa kanya galing ang mga ahente!

Hayzzz...nabigyan man lang kaya siya ng feedback ng kanyang direct supervisor nuon na kailangan niyang mag-step-up?

AND TO TOP IT ALL...ang napili niyang pakasalan ay si Mr. Signal #4!

Juice koh!!!! Together, their like Mr. and Mrs. Smith...Pugad Baboy version...ahihihi.

Ooops...ok, sorry, joke lang...mejo below the belt yun.

Tama na ang rantings. Hindi naman niya ako nasakatan or whatever...I'm ranting for my friend (si Cat Woman)...tapos siyempre, sablay lang talaga kasi ang work niya.

Pero in fairness...I can see naman her kasipagan. Mabibo din siya...yung tipong:

"Oh, really? You know how to do that? Kaze, ako rin eh...I mean, you know, I have to learn on my own and all...pero, you know, I'm really proud that I know it so well!"

Hu-wow!

Ok...tama na...tama na...

Baka kanina pa niya nakakagat yung bibig niya dahil dito. O baka kanina pa siya nadadapa (imagine...imagine...imagine ...snicker...snicker...wakekkeke)

From Mami with Love...

2008-08-07T19:31:00.001+08:00

Nang makauwi ako kanina sa aming humble abode (naks, wakekeke), si Mamita ay nanonood ng Pilipinas, Game Ka Na Ba...

Blogger: Hi Ma!
Edu: Anong bagay ang orihinal na gawa lamang sa papel na hapon noong unang panahon?
Mami: Parol!
Contestant: Uh, parol? Sure na?

Blogger: (buntong hininga...diretcho sa kusina...nagbukas ng mga kaldero) Ma, may pagkain ba?
Mamita: (masyadong engrossed kay Edu)
Blogger: (buntong-hininga ulit...pumanhik ng kwarto...nagpalit...naisip na matulog na lamang ng hindi na kumakain...subalit...)
Tiyan ko: krrrruuuuu- kkkrruuuu

Gutom talaga ako. Kaya't minarapat ko nalang na bumalik sa kusina. Pagkalabas ko ng kuwarto, napansin kong patalastas na.

Mami: O, ba't ganyan hitsura mo?
Blogger: (Napatingin ako sa suot ko...inakala kong madumi ito kaya nagtatanong si Mamita...pero di naman) Bakit Ma? Wat you mean?

Mami: Bente-tres ka pa lang...pero mukha ka ng trenta. Eh mukha ngang nanganak ka na ng tatlo eh! Hanu bang pinag-gagagawa mo sa sarili mo?
Blogger: (Napasulyap sa may malaking salamin na nasa aming sala...) Ha? Hindi naman!

Mami: Anong hindi?! Ikaw ha...nagpi-pills ka ba?
Blogger: Ma, anu bazz! Hindi ko kailangan yan!

Mami: Siguro...sobra kung mag-to-ne-ne-net kayo ng boypren mo noh?
Blogger: (Hay Lord...save me...please) Ma! Anu ka ba! Hindi dapat yan sinasabi ng isang Mami!

Mami: Hay, ikaw ha! Wag ka ngang makasumbat-sumbat! Hindi porket may trabaho ka na eh nagmamalaki ka na! Ang sinasabi ko lang...tignan-tignan mo ang kalusugan mo! Hindi ako nagpakahirap ng ilang taon ng pagpapalaki sa inyo para lang laspagin kayo ng ibang tao!!
Blogger: (Haynaaaaa....apuuuu) Ok, Ma.

Mami: Anong ok, ma?! Eh lahat naman ng OO mo eh oo hanggang pwet lang!
Blogger: (Er...ano ngay ang sasabihin ko?)

Mami: Hoy, ikaw...may vitamins ka pa ba?
Blogger: Wala na po...

Mami: O, eh ano na naman yan? Kelan ka bibili?
Blogger: May cash outlay para sa Vitamins sa Clinic eh...dun nalang ako kukuha.

Mami: Hay! Siguraduhin mo na kukuha ka. Mamaya niyan eh pati yan i-asa niyo sa akin!
Blogger: (buntong-hininga...pumunta ng kusina...nagbukas muli ng kaldero) (inisip kong ilang saglit nalang ay pati kasalanan ko 5-10years ago ay uungkatin ni Mamita...pagkatapos ay pati kasalanan ng mga kapatid ko'y maipapatong na rin sa balikat ko).

....nang mabuksan ko na ang pangtlong kaldero...

Mami: Nung mga bata kayo...ni hindi ako pumapayag na madapuan kayo ng lamok! Tapos ngayung malalaki na kayo, dapat naman sana'y alam niyo na kung pano alagaan mga sarili niyo....

....pumasok ako ng CR...

Mami: peyrow hindeh...halows lawhat nakawasaw...(mejo muffled yung words ni Ma...di ko masyadong naiintindihan pero alam kong she's still on the same subject).

....lumabas ako ng CR, naghugas ng kamay....wala akong magustuhan sa ulam...naisip kong nagsawa ako sa adobo at sa sinigang sa ofis...kasi halos yun yung order ko pag kakain man ako ng kanin...

Mami: Ang sabi ko sa Dadi niyo, pag lumaki na kayo ay mababawasan na ang sakit sa ulo namin. Kasi akala namin ay mas magiging responsable kayo. PERO HINDI!

....oops, narinig ko yun ah....hmmm...kailangang magsanay pa ako sa aking selective listening skills...minsan ay nakakalusot parin ang ibang sermon....

Mami: Tignan niyo ngayun! Halos mas madalas pa kayong magkasakit ngayun kesa nung mga bata kayo! Hay naku!!! Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko sa inyo!!!

....mukhang matutulog nga akong gutom. Or pwede namang idaan nalang sa Jjhamphong. Hmmm...ayaw din...I want something sweet...may puto sa table...yes!

Mami: At ang mga kapatid mo! Tignan mo, ginagaya ka nila! Hindi narin sila kumakain bago sila pumasok! Tignan mo nga yang tinuturo mo??!! Imbes na maging role model ka sana...pero hindi mo naman ginagawa!

...nakain ko ang puto...naubos in 2 bites...shucks...grabeh, gutom talaga ako...toothbrush time!!!

Mami: Hindi naman ako nagkulang ng paalala sa inyo. Wala naman kayong masasabi dahil halos sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Diyos eh pinapa-alala ko sa inyo ang mga dapat niyong ginagawa.

...hilamos ng mukha...tapos lagay ng toner...tapos moisturizer....

Mami: Pag kayo nagkasakit ng grabeh, wag na wag kayong iiyak sa akin! Dahil alam ng Diyos kung sino ang may kasalanan kung bakit kayo magkakasakit! Walang iba kung hindi kayo rin!
Blogger: Ok, Ma....uh, tulog na po ako. Maaga pa ako pasok later.

Mami: Ok, gud night , anak. Cge, I love you (pumasok sa loob ng kuwarto nila ni Dadi at natulog na din).

Haaaayyyzzz...si Mami talaga...feeling ko di kumpleto ang araw pag di siya nang-a-armalite ng kahit isa sa aming magkakapatid.

Blogger: Love you Ma!

PANAWAGAN

2008-08-07T13:43:00.002+08:00

Dahil nalilito ako sa bagong pangalan ng mga distro...na kesyo may dots na nga...may dashes pa. LORD! Life is already complicated...dadagdagan pa nila? OMG!!!

Henyways...panawagan sa mga OLD, NEW and CURRENT Citadelians...

SHOT TAYO!!!!

Sa bahay ni OM Carl!!!

Miss ko na kayo!!!

(peace Om...payag ka na please......)

Time and Space...

2008-08-05T06:53:00.000+08:00

I've nerver noticed him before...which is weird..kasi his face is not the kind that girls would ignore...kahit na truly madly deeply inlove ka sa boyfriend mo. He looked like the younger version of Tom Cruise, mas matangkad nga lang by my standards at saka mejo mas moreno.
Ewan ko ba...one day..I just saw him there...
He was sitting at the farthest end of our bay. Natigilan pa ako nung una...I had to check the bays again...to be sure that I was at the right place.
Then I just shrugged it aside...as long as he does not disturb me, he can stay where ever he wants.
It's Monday again...a new week. Sigh.

"You've forgotten already..."

Nagulat ako. He was behind me. Was he talking to me? Pero that's weird...I don't even know him.

"I'm sorry?"

"I can see it in your eyes...you don't even know me anymore."

I saw sadness in his expression. Naguluhan na talaga ako.
I stood up and faced him. It really felt awkward looking up at him...eh ang tangkad pa man din niya.

"Sorry, pero I think you're mistaking me for someone else. I don't really know you..."

He took a deep breath. It was as if he was containing his frustration. And the weird part was I could feel his sadness. For some reason, it seemed like he really expected that I would know him, that I would welcome him and be happy that I saw him.

"You promised that you wouldn't forget..."

He raised his hand, as if to touch my face. But I cringed. I could not help it. Everything that was happening was soooo weird.

"Don't you remember? The night before the Japanese attack? I had to say goodbye to you but you would not let me. I had to go...because it is my duty as a soldier to fight.
We made love that night. You begged me not to go. But I still left. But I promised that I will be back...and you promised that you'd wait...and that you'd never forget me."

Nyahahahahah. WEIRD BA? Pasensiya na. The story was inspired by a tagalog novel na nabasa ko. Nakakalat kasi sa bahay. Hindi ako mahilig sa tagalog novels. At inaamin ko, madalas ay inaapi ko yung mga nagbabasa nito. Yung Daddy ko kasi...nung bata pa kami, lagi niyang sinasabi na dapat masanay kami sa English novels...dahil pangkatulong daw ang Tagalog novels.
Anyway, the concept was not really unique...re-incarnation where one character retains all memories...and the other...well...no idea at all.
Cute noh? Wahehehe

$$ patalastassss $$

2008-08-04T20:17:00.000+08:00

Ang ABS ni Papa Sam

2008-08-04T14:50:00.000+08:00

Pinakita na ang buong trailer ng Diyosa. Ang HABA naman ng hair ni Ann Curtis! Tama bang tatlong papable ang leading man niya?! TSK!
Anyways, kahapon ay inaaya kami ni Coach Milo na manood ng "A Very Special Love"...sabi ko'y may lakad na ako this weekend. Napag-usapan nalang namin na gawing team building yun. Buong team namin eh manonood ng movie..ahahaha...ibang trip din!
In fairness....ang buhay ko sa Kapuso Network ay mas napapadali dahil sa mga taong katulad ni Coach Milo, kay mami Tei, kay mother Anne B at siyempre...si Rockstar Tonie..wakekekek. Feeling ko, pag anjan sila, at home na ako.

Oo nga pala...ang tpoic ngayun ay ang ABS ni Papa Sam...wala lang... nanaginip kasi ako kagabi...nakahiga daw ako sa abs niya...nyahahahah. Ewan ko ba kung saan galing yun? It must be the last Bench Black Out show.

Lord! Is it me or is it hot in here?

$$ wakekeke..patalastas lang po $$

2008-08-04T14:11:00.001+08:00

G.arden O.f S.orrows

2008-08-03T13:59:00.003+08:00

Pumasok ako kagabi...haaaayzzz. Nakakdepress kasi day off ko..pero asa office parin ako. Karamihan sa mga katrabaho ko ay workaholic ang pagkakakilala sa akin. Di lang nila alam...hindi naman talaga ako workaholic...wala lang akong time management. Hindi ko yun namana sa aking Mamita...na kayang magluto...habang naglalaba at habang naglalaro ng bingo.

Kagigising ko lang ngayun...Linggo na...nagbabasa si Mahal ng Midland...at nag-ko-koment: "Anu ba naman..kada lipat ko nalang ay may advertisement ng Review Center para sa mga Nursing."
Napangiti nalang ako...

Umuulan...na naman. Kung hindi ko lang iniisip ang mga magsasaka na nangangailangan ng patubig ay mababagot sana ako...
Kasabay ng ulan ay napadpad ang aking isipan sa mga usap-usapang naririning ko lately. Chismis again??? Well...most likely heheheh. Pero no code names ngayun...coz there are too many people commenting about this that it will be too hard for me to come up with hundreds of code names.

So..ang topic...yep...GOS.
Ang programa na pilit itinataguyod sa lugar na kung saan ako'y namulat sa siyensiya ng pagtratabaho kapalit ng sahod.

Tao1: GOS? Hanu yun?
Blogger: Haler, 10 years ka ng andito di mo pa alam yun?
Tao1: Well, I heard about it...it sounds good and all that shit...but it's not being implemented.

At nang naganap ang malawakang implementasyon....

Galit1: Pu$*ng I#%ng GOS yan! Wala daw Mentor na posisyon sa structure niya! Kasalanan ko bang di ginawa ng T%ng-I#%ng boss ko yung trabaho niya kaya hanggang ngayun eh di pa ako promoted sa dapat na posisyon ko! F*#k!
Blogger: (No comment, nagtakip nalang ng tenga)
Galit2: So ngayun, there are too many F#*king QA's in this F#*king account? F*#k that! F*#k them all! God damn f*#king people who thinks they can just mess up with people's lives!
Blogger: (haaayzzz...takip tenga ulit)

Sa kabilang banda...

Happy1: Coach, as in? Pwede na agad akong makasama sa CTT program? Basta ok yung stats ko for 6 weeks?
Blogger: Yep! Cool noh?
Happy2: You mean, I'm not required to become a Tier2 or a QA anymore?
Blogger: Well...pag naging Tier2 or QA ka kasi, mejo may edge ka na rin kasi lalawak ang experience mo. But to answer your question, yes, you're not required to be a Tier2 or QA to become a coach.
SourGrape: Ang panget nga eh...mga hilaw yung napupunta sa Coach na posisyon. And to think na yun yung pinaka-crucial na posisyon. Kung sino man gumawa ng GOS, he must have been dead drunk.

Lord! OMG talaga!!!
My opinion? GOS is like MAP...you can't get away from it. Katulad ng ilang mga institusyon, kinakailangan ng isang systema para maisagawa ang lahat. Ako man ay may duda sa programang ito...subalit, I'm willing to give it a chance. And I'm not just saying that kasi gusto kong tumakbo bilang mayor pero...I say it kasi the program has a lot of sense and it can eliminate a lot of noise...AS LONG AS it is followed and it is implemented by the right people.

Huwahahaha. Good luck sa ating lahat! Sana ngay di tayo pulutin sa kangkungan kung sakali!!!

Saling Pusa....

2008-07-27T17:06:00.003+08:00

Sa halos isang buwan na paghahawak ko ng team dito sa Kapuso Network ay may mga kaganapang naganap na rin na nakakatawa talaga...

Tulad nalang ng isyu ng ESR at PA. Nang hawakan ko ang doseng ahente, isa sa kanila ay dapat 10 years ago na regularized na...yung dalawa naman ay ilang araw nalang ay dapat gawan na ng PA.
Syempre di ko kilala ang mga ahente...alangan namang mag-imbento ako ng kani-kanilang sparkling qualities para lang maging regular sila noh??!!! HALER!
Pero hayun na nga...syempre ako...mega email....tsk....sablay pa naman akong mag-email...

Blogger email: Coach, this agent is saying that he does not have PA yet. Is he extended? From what I know, these documents are to be prepared a month prior to the regularization date....

Ang tanging punto ko lang naman ay baka nga extended yung ahente...
Pero, it was mis-interpreted....akala nila'y ipinagdukdukan kong hindi nila alam gumawa ng PA. Tsk....next time...kailangan kong maglagay ng post script sa mga email ko...like: "What I meant in this email is that...."

Tapos kamakailan lang ay may nag-approach sa akin. Kumakalat daw na may sinabi ako na si OM churva ay pinagalitan daw ang dalawang Coach dahil sa hindi nila tinulungan ang ahente ko. OMG!!! Huwaaat???

Haaaayzzz. Minsan nakakapanghina. Minsan nakakapanglumo ng loob pag alam mong saling pusa ka lang. Pero minsan lang yun.

Kadalasan....natatawa ako. Ini-imagine ko minsan na bawat salitang binibitawan ko ay pilit binibigyan ng ibang kulay ng iba. Ahahaha....weeeeellll...dead! Kung gusto nilang bigyang kulay ang lahat ng aking gagawin at sasabihin, then I'll give them crayons and watercolors! Dagdagan ko na rin ng gulay! Para talagang makulay ang buhay!!! Wakekekekeek.

CODENAME: EROSsssssss

2008-07-26T11:08:00.004+08:00

Alas-singko kahapon ng umaga...nanahimik ako sa aking station...ang isa sa aking ahente na naka-break ay biglang umupo sa tabi ko at sinabing:

Erotica: Coach, ano na-i-imagine mo pag nakikita mo si Eros?
Blogger: Huh? (hindi nakikinig, nagbabasa ng sandamak-mak na email habang karamihan sa mga ahente ay naka-break...packsyet...pati ba naman "I love hairy men" eh na-se-send sa buong distro???!!!)
Erotica: Coach, tumungin ka kasi ah...ayun o si Eros. Ano ang naiisip mo pag nakikita mo siya?
Blogger: (tumungin sa direksyon na tinuturo ni Miss Erotica) Siya? Ano naman ang i-imaginin ko jan?
Erotica: (buntong hininga...yung parang sa taong inlove na inlove) Ang gwapo niya kaya....diba??
Blogger: Uh...carry lang....
Erotica: Alam mo Coach, pag nakikita ko siya..para siyang pancake na may syrup...sarap kainin!!!
Blogger: (parang may dagundong ng kulog akong narining...HANU raw? LORD!!!!)
Erotica: Pag anjan siya...parang nasa ulap ako...tapos ang bango niya!!!!

Tinignan kong muli si Eros. Napansin ko ang makinis niyang mukha. Ang matangos niyang ilong. Ang mapupungay na mga pilik mata...ang kanayang mga labi. Hindi siya nagyo-yosi...kaya pink ito. Tapos ang kanyang ngiti...parang nakakatunaw. Tapos matangkad pa siya...mejo chinito...matalino...mabait...sigh.

Blogger: (tumingin akong muli sa aking ahente) Hayzzz...hanu bang pinagsasabi mo jan. Wala namang kapansin-pansin sa lalaking yan. Kung ikukumpara mo man siya sa pagkain...isa siyang...cake na maganda ang design...pero pag kinain ay walang lasa.
Erotica: Si Coach naman eh!
Blogger: Ready mo nalang toools mo. Wag mo ng pagpantasyahan yun!

48 HOURS ...plus

2008-07-21T05:07:00.056+08:00

10:30 AM Thurs (July 17, 2008)

Naglog-out na ako...pauwi na rin. Pamatay ang shift na iyon...habang kumukuha ako ng sandamakmak na escalations eh umiikot naman sa sakit ang aking tiyan. Packsyet...expired na yata yung Lucky Me Pancit Canton ni Manang dun sa store. Ish!

Kinailangan ko pang lumagok ng kalahating litro ng hydrite...EEWWWW.

Halos mga 2-3 lang ang tulog ko nung kinagabihan. Hay lord...

At nang magkita naman kami ng mahal kong nobyo...HALA!!! Pati siya ay masakit daw ang tiyan! OMG! It must be the PANCIT CANTON! Damn!

6:00 PM Thurs (July 17, 2008)

Wala pa akong tulog...patuloy ang paghilab ng aking tiyan...ganun din si Mahal. Hayzzz... 6 na oras nalang ay may pasok na naman ako. Alas-siyete ang pasok ni Mahal. Umuwi na ako sa amin. Dala dala ang aking laptop at iba pang mga gamit.

Mga also-otso na siguro ng ako'y makahiga sa kama.

SA WAKAS!!!!

9:00PM Thurs (July 17, 2008)

Buzzzt. Buzzzt. Buzzzzt. Buzzzt.

Ang aking alarm! Uu nga pala. Alas-onse ang pasok ko. Mas pinaaga ito dahil sa may training kami...packsyet naman....

At hindi lang iyon...kinailangang pumunta ni Mahal sa ospital dahil patuloy ang kanyang pagpupu...at may kasama pang pagsusuka.
Lord. Isinusumpa ko na ko na ang PANCIT CANTON!

....pero sabi ni Mahal...di daw yung PANCIT CANTON...yung kinain daw namin sa STAR CAFE...tsk...wish ko lang ay di nagbabasa ng blog ang may-ari ng restaurant na yun. Baka sabihin ay libel itow! LORD!

12:03m AM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Ka-lo-login ko lang sa ITKA...nagsasabi na ng escalation yung ahente ko. ANYAMETENEN. Ok payn! Work na ito! Go go go!

10:52 AM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Tapos na ang shift. Naka-confine na si Mahal. Pumunta muna ako ng town, nag-grocery ng ilang mga pagkain. Pagkatapos ay umuwi ako sa amin para kumuha ng ilang damit at para makuha na rin itong laptop. Bored na daw si mahal...gusto maglaro habang may dextrose. Hayna!
Kaya naman para akong sampayan ng bag nang ako'y makarating sa hospital sa dami ng dala.

12:15 PM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Sa Notre Dame...
Pagkatapos kong tulungan si Mahal na i-setup ang laftaf...kumain ako ng kaunti at saka pinilit na mamahinga sa may cot bed.
OMG...nakalimutan kong every 15min pala ang labas pasok ng mga "nurses" dito. Kesyo check the stats daw...kesyo check yung IV. Hayna. Tuwing nagbubukas ang pinto, nagugulat ako at nagigising. Ewan ko ba...pwede ko naman silang deadmahin. Nahihiya lang siguro ako na makatulog talaga ng mahimbing...at baka paggising ko ay may laway-laway pa...
JUICE KOH!!! Kakahiya naman dun sa cute na intern!

2:30 PM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Bzzzt. Bzzzt. Bzzzzt.
Waaaaah!!! It's my alarm again??!!
Oh yeah...rehearsals para sa kasal na Ana at ni Elton. Alas-tres yun. Hayzzz...siya sige na nga...although tempted akong wag nang pumunta... mahal ko yung dalawang yun...kaya later na ang tulog...tara na sa rehearsals!!!! Yey!!!

4:00 PM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Sa Lourdes Church..sa may Kisad..yung sa tabi ngay ng City Travel Hotel.
Di pa nagsisimula yung rehearsals...LORD! Wala pa akong isusuot para sa kasal. Autumn ang theme...hmmm...
Tsk...sobrang di na ako mapakali...nagpaalam ako sa bride. Sabi ko'y maghahanap na muna ako ng masusuot. Si Miss Miren ay nagbigay din ng mga tips tungkol sa mga kulay na angkop sa Autumn.

5:30 PM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Nyahahahahha!!! Ang galing-galing!!! Kahit papano'y di pa rin pala ako limot ni Lord. Nakahanap ako agad ng damit...plus with matching sapatos pa!!! Huwaahahahahaha!!! Pero alas-singko na. Naisip ko na baka tapos na ang rehearsals. Minabuti kong bumalik nalang sa ospital.

6:00 PM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Sa Notre Dame ulit...
Tsk...ilang oras nalang at may shift na naman ako...pero gustuhin ko mang matulog...ay hindi ko magawa. Naroon ang Mama ng aking Mahal. Siyempre..kuwentuhan ng kaunti...

7:00 PM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Sa wakas...pahinga!!!!
(Pasok ang nurse..."Ma'am, check lang po namin BP ni sir....")
After 15mins: Hay....nakaalis na rin sila...sige..tulog ulit
(Pasok ang Papa ni Mahal..."O...check ko lang kayo...")
After 20mins: Hayan...tulog na ito...Lord...maawa kayo...let me sleep please...
(Gising si Mahal...may tunog ng plastic...kumakain siya...tapos nag-CR...kain ulit. Nabangga niya ang chair...tapos binubuksan niya muli yung laftaf. "Babe, tulong naman. Angat mo naman yung bed ko...")
After 1 hourssssss: Ayos nang muli ang posisyon ni Mahal...komportable na siya...cge...idlip na ako. Heto na ito. Pramis!!!
(Bumaba muli ng bed si Mahal...inaantok na daw. Niligpit ang laftaf)
(Pasok si nurse uli...check naman ngayun yung IV)
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....

9:30 PM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Bzzzzt. Bzzzzt. Bzzzzt.
Huwaaaat??? Oras na ulit para mag-bihis??!!!
Syeeet!!!!

10:30 PM Fri (July 18, 2008)
Sa office...
Agent ko: Hi Coach!!! Aga mo today ah!!!
Blogger: Yeah...kasi I need to log-out early. I will be attending a wedding by 9AM tomorrow.

6:00 AM Sat (July 19, 2008)
OM: Vida, are you ready to present your SKEP and your Action Plans?
Blogger: Huh? Me? Errr...now?
OM: Yes, now?
Blogger: (pinagpawisan...HANO RAW? Tama ba naririnig ko? Eh ni hindi ko pa nga na-update yun after yung COMMIT training with Weng! At saka isa pa...WALA namang CALENDAR na na-send ah! THIS IS A VIOLATION!!!)
Blogger: Uhm, give me 5mins OM...let me just update it.

7:00 AM Sat (July 18, 2008)
Dapat sana'y pa-logout na ako. Pero hayun ako't nagpresent pa ng action plans. LORD naman!!!

8:14 AM Sat (July 18, 2008)
Nakauwi na ako sa amin. Syet. Hala cge...plantsa ng damit. Ligo...
Text: Coach! San ka na?
Blogger: Wait lang...maliligo lang ako.
Text: Coach dali!!! Andito kami sa City Travel. Room 412. Dito ka na magbihis!
Blogger: Ok, ok!

8:54 AM Sat (July 19, 2008)
Hayun na siguro ang pinaka-mabilis kong oras ng pagligo. Tapos nung ako'y pababa na sa taxi, alang barya daw ang damuhong taxi driver!!! 500 ang pera ko...Lord...I'm sooo late!
O cge...takbo sa 4th floor...utang kay Joyce..ala daw siyang barya. Binigyan ako ng 200 na bill. Takbo ako sa baba at ibinigay kay driver...narinig kong pinapalis na siya nung guard...
Blogger: Manong, heto po.
Driver: Ang kulit naman...sinabing wala akong barya eh!!! (tapos umandar at umalis)

PUNYEEETTAAAH!!! 200 yun!!! 43 lang yung patak koh!!!

Ni hindi ko na nakuha ang plate number. Hindi ko narin pwedeng i-contemplate pa ang aking galit. Dahil magsisimula na ang wedding. Nakadamit pambahay parin ako...
Kaya ...hala cge...takbo sa 4th floor. Suot ng damit at sapatos...

9:15 AM Sat (July 19, 2008)
Sa CR ng room 412 sa City Travel Hotel...
Joyce: Coach, tara na sa simbahan. Dun ka nalang mag make-up.
Blogger: Ok cge. (suklay, suklay)
Joyce: Tara na coach...
Blogger: Ok...(biglang natabig ang liquid foundation...at natapunan ang aking damit)

9:30 AM Sat (July 19, 2008)
Sa may Lourdes Church...
Blogger: Syeeet!! Joyce, I need tissue....
Joyce: Ok lang yan, Coach. Di naman masyadong halata.
Someone: Ang mga abay at sponsors!!! Magpila na kayo! Kanina pa nag-aantay ang pari!!!
Joyce: Kaya natin toh , Coach. This will all be over in a few minutes....

Haay...hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyari sa linggong itoh. Pakiramdam ko'y pinagsakluban ako ng langit at lupa. Hindi ko naman mahubad yung damit...it's too late to change. Isa pa...pambahay na yung ipapalit ko kung sakali.

9:54 AM Sat (July 19, 2008)
Nagsimula na rin ang kasal sa wakas. Kung tutuusin...ito ang kauna-unahang kasal na gising na gising ako. Aside from the fact na alert ako dahil parang nalalag-lag ang aking invisible bra dahil sa di maayos na pagkakalagay...ay talaga namang nakaka-emote yung scene...

Hayyy.. Guwapong-guwapo si Elton sa kanyang mala-orange na barong. At sina Ana naman...hay..nakaka-inggit siya. Ang haba ng trail...tapos may leaves-leaves pa. At parang ang saya-saya nilang dalawa.

Maraming parte sa mga sinabi ni Father ay hindi ko narinig. Mostly dahil nagku-kuwentuhan kami ni Miren...at dahil distracted din ako. Nag-i-imagine...pano kaya ang aking kasal?

11:32 AM Sat (July 19, 2008)
Pinahawak namin ang aming mga gamit sa kaibigan ni Miren na si Marvin. At dahil tapos na ang seremonyas...at picture taking nalang...dun ko palang nakuha muli ang aking mga gamit. Si Mahal may text. Pa-log-out na daw siya sa ospital. Alam kong marami siyang dala. I need to help him...

Hindi na ako nag-stay for the reception. Dali-dali kaming bumalik ni Joyce sa Room 412. Nagpalit. Nagpaalam sa bagong kasal. At lumayas.

2:07 PM Sat (July 19, 2008)
Nakauwi na si Mahal sa wakas. At dito na rin nagtatapos ang aking 48 hours ...and more na pagdurusa.

Natulog ako...simula alas tres hanggang ala una ng umaga. Nagising...masakit ang tiyan...natulog muli...wala ng kain-kain. Na-miss ko ang tulog...later na ang pagkain.

Salamat po, Lord, at tapos na nag aking Series of Unfortunate Events.

$$ patalastas uli $$

2008-07-12T19:23:00.000+08:00

Ang Boyfriend - baw

2008-07-10T20:36:00.003+08:00

Ang part 2 na usapang ito ay last Friday pa naganap...ngayun lang ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataon na i-blog.

Blogger: O, musta na kayo ng boyfriend mo?

Ahente: Coach alam mo ba, nung araw na nag-usap tayo...kinausap ko rin siya nung nakauwi na ako eh.

Blogger: O, nakatira pa pala kayo sa isang bahay. Eh di mas lalo mo dapat alam na di siya bading.

Ahente: Di Coach. Sa text lang kami nag-usap. Ayoko ngang maki-paglive-in sa kanya!

Blogger: Hmmm...I see. O musta naman?

Ahente: Sabi niya kung anu-ano raw tinatanong ko.

Blogger: Hindi mo pa ba napapatunayan?

Ahente: What you mean, Coach?

Blogger: Er...you know....yung...you know...

Ahente: (nalungkot) Ahh..yung mag-chenelin? Di pa po eh. Kaya nga feeling ko bading siya.

Blogger: OMG. Hanu ka ba, girl?! Eh malay mo naman kung talagang ni-re-respect ka lang niya! Aba, rare na ang mga lalaking nakakapagtimpi sa panahong ito noh!

Ahente: Eh naman Coach! Ako na nga itong nagpaparamdam, deadma parin siya!!! Anu naman yun, diba?

Blogger: Baka nga naman kasi gusto niyang kasal muna. Ayaw mo nun? Ibig sabihin ay talagang seryoso siya sayo. Tsk. Bakit, gano na ba kayo katagal?

Ahente: Mag-iisang taon na.

Blogger: (hmmm..biglang nagtaka na din...) O, divah? Talagang isa siyang gentleman!

Ahente: Hay! Basta nakaka-stress siya! Gusto ko na ngang i-break eh! Ok lang sana kung sweet siya. Parang feeling ko, pag hinahalikan ko siya...alam mo yun...umiiwas.

Blogger: (naku...tsk...baka nga may posebilidad) Girl, kasi nga...baka mawalan siya ng control. At saka, isang taon na rin yun. Mag-usap kasi kayo...sayang naman.

Ahente: Eh pano kung bading talaga siya? Pano kung nagtatago lang siya? Pano kung ginagamit niya lang ako para pagtakpan kabadingan niya?

Blogger: (dios mio) Eh di...hmmm... kung ganun man... ma-flatter ka nalang. Ibig sabihin, ikaw ang siyang napili para pagtakpan ang katotohanan.

Ahente: Coach naman eh!

Blogger: Ahehe...joke lang! Hanu ka bazzz!!! Kung magkaganun man, maraming isda sa dagat. May mga nanliligaw na nga sayo ngayun eh. Di ka mauubusan noh!

Ahente: Eh sayang naman yung isang taon na sinayang ko kung sakali.

Blogger: (tsk...mga bata nga naman...naks -feeling mature? Wahahaha) Hindi dapat ganun. Dun sa isang taon na yun, imposible namang walang happy moments. Atleast you have those memories. At saka, di lang naman chenelin ang batayan ng relationship eh.

Nagtataka ba kayo sa picture? Ahahaha...nope, hindi yan ang boyfriend niya. Yan ang delicious na bida sa series na Prison Break. At alam niyo ba? Bading daw siya!!! Huawaaaahhh. Halos gumuho ang aking mundooooooo!!! Hano na ba talaga ang nangyayari sa mundo??? Bakit ang mga sobrang PAPAlicious ay bading pala? Bakit di nalang mga chuckie dreyfoos? Huhuhuhuhu. I'm heart broken.

Heto ang link sa artikulo na naghahayag ng kabadingan daw ni Wentworth Miller...huhuhuhuhuhu...huhuhuhu...huwaaaahhhhuhuhuhu.

www.aceshowbiz.com/news/view/00010934.html

$$ patalastas $$

2008-07-09T19:18:00.000+08:00

PAGKAGULAT

2008-07-09T13:48:00.002+08:00

Nang binuksan ko ang blog ko ngayung araw na ito...agad kong binasa ang chat box. Sinagot ko ang mga kumento ng mga tao duun...pero ito ang di ko kinaya...ang kumento ni Tomb Raider.

Tapos...bigla akong napaisip....

si TOMB RAIDER?

AS IN?

Ibig sabihin....umabot hanggang SINGAPORE yung blog ko???

OMG!!!

Mga Bolex na Linya

2008-07-09T13:27:00.004+08:00

Linya ko sa unang escalation: "I know this is frustrating, Mr. Mcgurn. And believe me, I would really like to make things better for you. I would just need for you to understand that I would also need time to work on this...and believe me, this is already the fastest way that we have..." > ang "fastest way" na sinasabi ko dito ay 3 business days...pero meron pang mas mabilis...24 hrs...pero as long as kakagat...go!!!

Linya ko sa pangalawang escalation: "I really feel for you Miss Hudson. I know that this can be a headache sometimes...but, the thing is...there is a way out of this. we just have to give the system 3 business days. It is usually 10 business days ma'am...but for you...I'm expediting it already..." > packsyeeeet!!! Liar, liar!

Kung anu-ano ang mga linyang ginagamit ko sa mga escalations ko....madalas naman gumagana. Salamat sa Diyos.

OMG...mabuti nalang at namulat ako sa mundo ng ka-bolexan sa ABS-CBN. Kung hindi...hay sus! Ini-imagine ko na lang kung pano ako lulusot...tapos dagdagan mo pa ng kums issue? Ay, dead!!!

The Conversation - part 2!

2008-07-06T20:22:00.004+08:00

He: Saw you a while ago..

She: Really? San? Di kita nakita eh. You transferred to a different station ba?

He: Nope...I was at Starbucks 2...you were too busy to see me.

She: Ahhhh...hehehe...sorry.

He: No worries. But, I need to ask you something.

She: Go...what is it?

He: Iniiwasan mo ba ako?

She: Nope. Where'd you get that idea?

He: I feel it.

She: Ma-feeling ka lang masyado.

He: Ahahah...ok...cge na nga. I just can't help it. You barely spoke to me since last week.

She: Ano ka ba, relax. I won't avoid you for the world.

He: Really? Ok...that's a relief.

Walang Kamatayang Isyu

2008-07-06T19:29:00.008+08:00

Sa mga nakaraang araw ay tila nahihirapan akong matulog. Kahit na 13 hours na ako sa opisina...at kahit na alam kong halos nag-blu-"blue-screen" na ang aking utak dahil sa pagod...ay parang di makuha ng aking mata na matulog - PACKSYET.

Hayzzz..kanina lamang ay pinipilit ko na namang makakuha ng malalim na tulog...yung tipong kahit kalampagin ng nanay ko yung kaldero sa tenga ko ay deadma parin...

Pero may ibang balak ang pagkakataon....bzzt bzzzt. Bzzzt bzzzt.

Cellphone ko yun. Naka-silent mode para kahit tawagan ako ay wala akong marinig.

Gusto kong di nalang ito pansinin...pero dahil di rin lang ako makatulog...bumangon nalang ako at binuksan ang telebisyon. THE BUZZ na. Si Ai-Ai ang guest co-host. Si Tito Boy ay nasa kalagitnaan ng paghahayag ng isyu tungkol kay Greta. OMG....tsk, tsk. Kawawang Greta...na-decline pala ang kanyang credit card sa isang hotel...at inakala ng marami na pinutol ni Tony Boy ang kanyang credit funding. Pero di daw iyon tutuo. Sa katunayan ay nagpunta pa si Tony Boy sa hotel para siya mismo ang magbayad ng hotel fees...susyal naman!

Anyway, nalayo na ako sa orihinal kong paksa. May nagtext nga pala....

Si Tito BOI.

Tito BOI: Wrong si Acido sa comment niya. Hindi yung taong dinescribe niya si Acid Rain. Kailangan mong i-filter ang mga comments sa blog mo. Kasi maraming nasasagasaan.

Dahil sa di ko na maalala yung kumento ni Acido..nagpasya akong pumasok...ahahaha...para mag-blog (toinks!). Di naman...mga 30% reason lang yun...marami talaga akong backlog...kaya OT galore ito -PACKSYET.

At heto ako ngayun...hinanap ang kumento ni Acido.

Tsk, tsk, tsk. At nung mahanap ko..OMG.. kung sabagay ay totoong below the belt ang kumento niya.

Hay...heto ang paalala ko sa mga naglalagay ng comment sa chat box. wag masyadong below the belt. Lahat tayo'y may kanya-kanyang haka-haka kung sino ang kntrobersyal na si Acid Rain...pero walang sigurado sa atin. Kaya't wag maglagay ng explicit (naks) description tungkol sa mga guesses ninyo...dahil pag mali iyon...tsk...lagot! At saka..baka magalit yung tutuong Acid Rain...dahil sabi ng marami ay di daw siya...hmmm...chubby.

Ayan...isa na namang blind item ang mga nadito. OMG!

$$ singit lang po $$

2008-07-06T19:14:00.001+08:00

BAWAL...BAWAL...

2008-07-05T18:51:00.003+08:00

Ish, ang daming bawal...
And to think na mas masarap ang mga bawal...
Ahihihi...at dahil sa ka-badtripan...naghanap ako ng mga bagay bagay na ipinagbawal at ipinagbabawal parin hangang ngayun...

Microsoft Xbox commercial - banned in the US.
Cool naman siya...

Insurance commercial - banned in the US
Nyahahah...asteeeeg!

DUREX commercial - banned in the...uh
Galing ng concept...unique

The Conversation

2008-07-03T13:40:00.005+08:00

He: Musta na?

She: Ok lang...long time no YM ah. Ikaw, musta kana rin?

He: Ok din lang. Busy ka ata. Di ka namamansin.

She: Ahahahah...di rin. Ikaw ata eh.

He: I'll be leaving in a few weeks. Ma-mi-miss kita.

She: Naks. Talaga lang ha? Uhm...Ako din. Wala na ako kakulitan sa YM.

He: Coffee naman tayo bago ako umalis.

She: Cge ba. Kelan?

He: I don't know...we'll see.

She: Ok.

Uyyyyyy. Sino kayang hindi naglock ng PC niya? Nyahahaah. Tsk-tsk-tsk.